En Sabath Nur (The Chosen One)

2012-02-12T22:32:00.002+08:00

Just so that people who drop by know, this blog is still alive - barely.

From October to Feb, a lot has happened.

Oct and Nov was spent busy preparing for the dreaded exams and thankfully, although I didn't do as well as I expected, I still managed to maintain my grades.

Dec was the fastest month, the only month in the year that flies by in a jiffy. No shit right? Went on two vacations in Dec, Malacca and China. Quite an exciting vacation I would say, after all, its the first time I've got to travel overseas with my girl.

Jan dawned upon me before I even realized and the new school term promptly elbowed its way into my life. Chinese New Year fell in the month of Jan and this also marked the first time, I've spent CNY overseas. Due to the passing of my late granny and chinese traditions, there weren't any celebrations this year. Thus, the overseas trip to Bang Kok. Shopping was fun over there but I certainly missed the CNY festivities and the atmosphere.

And finally here we are in Feb with work load piled so high, it'll make Mount Everest look like a hill. Everyday is a struggle to clear something before something else comes along and adds itself to the pile.

Valentine's day is coming by the way. Hope all of you (esp guys) have got it all planned out.

Life goes on...

2011-10-11T21:53:00.003+08:00

Its been such a long time since I last posted here. I guess as long as things are turning out well for me, there's no need for a blog post. Then again a blog shouldn't only be about unhappy posts. Yet I find myself turning to blog time and time again when I am down.

Today is no different. Today is just one of those days where I just feel like giving up. Absolutely, completely defeated. No will to push, no strength left to carry on the fight.

I drag my tired, reluctant feet to school, then force my tired, heavy eye lids to remain open only to find my mind miles away wondering what else I could be doing right now while the lecturer rants and rants away. Tutorials hardly seem related to lecture notes and exams hardly resemble the syllabus. Yes, school is killing me.

I question myself time and time again. Why engineering? Or perhaps it should be what happened to my passion for engineering?

I think NUS killed it. My passion was its first victim, I might just be next.

Life goes on...

2011-07-06T15:20:00.001+08:00

The emptiness inside. Its like my life's been turned upside down and all the contents emptied. Hollow, weak and hurting.

Life goes on...

2011-07-03T20:33:00.000+08:00

I still can't believe she's gone...

Life goes on...

2011-07-01T02:04:00.000+08:00

Good bye Grandma. Thank you for bring me up and taking care of me. Somehow you always feel like a mom to me more than a granny. Take care where ever you are. I'll always miss you and love you.

Life goes on...

2011-02-10T23:13:00.001+08:00

Its been quite awhile since I felt like this. But here I am, feeling so darn tired. Would be nice if I could just get away from all these for just a bit.

Life goes on...

2011-02-06T23:26:00.005+08:00

Hi folks! Happy Lunar New Year to you! Here's wishing everyone good health, good wealth and good grades! Hahaha...

Here are some pictures taken over the past few days.

I love my red hair! Haha...

Life goes on...

2011-01-29T00:20:00.002+08:00

After 24 years of deliberation, I finally did it. Well, then again, it wasn't exactly 24 years. Anyways, point is, I finally got round to dyeing my hair.

Its kinda dark reddish brown. Can't really see it in this picture thou. Haha...

Life goes on...

2010-11-19T01:19:00.003+08:00

They asked me what I wanted to be when I grew up. I said 'Happy'. But they told me I didn't understand the question. I told them you don't understand life.

As quoted from a friend on facebook.

Life goes on...

2010-10-27T21:26:00.002+08:00

A man seeks employment on a farm. He hands his letter of recommendation to his new employer. It reads simply, "He sleeps in a storm".

The owner, desperate for help hires the man.

Several weeks pass and suddenly, in the middle of the night, a powerful storm rips through the valley.

Awakened by the swirling rain and howling wind, the owner leaps out of bed. He calls for his new hired hand but the man is sleeping soundly.

So he dashes off to the barn. He sees, to his amazement, that the animals are secure with plenty of feed.

He runs out to the field. He sees the bales of wheat have been bound and are wrapped in tarpaulins.

He races to the silo. The doors are latched and the grain is dry.

And then he understands. "He sleeps in a storm".

My friends, if we tend to the things that are important in life, if we are right with those we love and behave in line with our faith, our lives will not be cursed with the aching throb of unfulfilled business. Our words will always be sincere, our embraces will be tight. We will never wallow in the agony of 'I could have, I should have'. We can sleep in a storm.

And when its time, our good-byes will be complete.

-Have a Little Faith by Mitch Albom

Life goes on...

2010-10-04T23:09:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I wonder if I'm actually giving up too much for my studies.

I feel like I've let those close who are close to me down.

Life goes on...

2010-08-23T22:05:00.002+08:00

Uni life has started. I'm into my 3rd week and honestly, I'm not liking it at all. The pace here is so fast and the lecturers teach without bothering whether or not you really understand. Worst part is, even if you approach to ask for help, the explanation he gives only makes you more confused.

Tutorials and labs are conducted by graduate students from far flung corners of the world with out of this world accent. How to learn when you can't even understand what they are saying?

How, like that how?

Life goes on...

2010-07-27T20:38:00.002+08:00

Well, looks like this marks the end of another chapter for me. My job at Red Bull has come to an end after like what, 5 months? Anyways, I'm glad its over. Honestly, I never liked it there - never felt like I belonged to the company.

But then again, I don't go in everyday, I get paid by the hour, I do what the rest of the guys don't have the time to. I go in, do my stuff and I get out. Somehow it always seem so suffocating in there. Worst of all, I'm alone most of the time even thou everyone's in the office.

Now, I'm just glad that its over. In fact I couldn't wait to knock off today, knowing that I'll leave this place and never return again.

I'm now looking forward to my job as a personal trainer/ gym duty instructor. I've been on official duty a couple of times now and I must admit, even thou I've passed my Fitness Instructor Course, I feel that it isn't adequate in equipping me with relevant and useful skills.

I'm relying on what I've learnt over the years training in the gym on my own. I think nothing beats experience and doing what you've been doing over the years. Like they say, "Practice makes perfect."

Life goes on...

2010-06-26T01:21:00.002+08:00

So the long await result for my FIC is finally out. Guess what? I've made it! Yea! Haha... I've passed all my stations and am one of the only 3 students of a class of 11 to pass this course.

I know I should be happy right? But truth be told, I'm actually a little disappointed. Reason being, I did not top the class like everyone, including myself expected it to be. In fact, amongst the 3, I scored the lowest. The only consolation is that I came in tops for theory, losing out in the practical section.

Irony, I'd say. Considering that I spent more time in the gym than the other two ladies combined. Absolutely disappointed. But nonetheless, I've passed so I guess I ought to count my blessings.

So now that I'm a certified fitness instructor, anyone wanna sign up for lessons? Haha...

Life goes on...

2010-06-14T13:12:00.002+08:00

Wow... I was just checking out my blog when I realised that its almost been a month since my last post. Lately it seems that other than shopping blogs, most blogs seem to be either dead or garner less views. I guess its due partly to Twitter and Facebook. But nonetheless, here's a quick update on my happenings.

I've completely my FIC course and the exams as well. Quite happy with how I think I've done thus far. The results should be out in a week or so. So till then, wish me luck guys! Haha...

Will be going for an interview next week to sign up as a personal trainer. No, you won't see me in gyms. I'm going for the ones whereby the trainer goes to the client's place to train the client. The money is better than going by the hour at the gym.

My special term in uni is coming to an end. This Friday will by my final paper. I've missed the deadline to register for the next one so I'll have to wait till August before going back to school.

As for my babe, she's off to Taiwan with her mom, sis and aunt. She'll be back only on Thursday. Missing her like crazy. As the saying goes, "Absence makes the heart grow fonder". How true.

Life goes on...

2010-05-16T00:07:00.002+08:00

Very much looking forward to my shopping trip with my Angel tomorrow. Kinda have a gist of what I want to get, but decided to list it all down to get a clearer picture.

Needs:

1. One pair of training gloves. My old one tore and smells of sweat and iron.

Wants:

1. A sling/pouch bag. It goes around your waist like a pouch, but its big enough to put a mini net book among other stuff.

2. Clothes! Thinking of going to Bods.Bodynits at Orchard Central, 30% of all items for Safra members. The last time I bought any was during CNY, which I only bought a long sleeve shirt.

Just the bag and gloves alone will set me back roughly slightly over a hundred. Hmmm... Which leaves me with not much to spend for clothes.

Damn it...

Life goes on...

2010-05-10T23:55:00.000+08:00

Today's my first official lecture in NUS, Principle of Econs as a GEM module.

Lo and behold, 3 years has come and gone since my poly days and here I am, an undergraduate. It'll be another 3 years before I bid this place fare well.

It might be strange to some that thou this is only my first day, yet I'm already looking forward to the last. But truth is, I'm quite tired of school already. I just can't wait to be done with it and start earning some decent income.

Come to think about it, I'm almost a quarter way through my life in like 2 years' time. Time really flies.

Life goes on...

2010-04-26T23:40:00.002+08:00

Going through my list of links on my blog. I realized that most of the blogs are either abandoned or have been deleted. Looks like facebook and twitter are killing blogs.

So sad...

Just a little update on those or if anyone drops by, this week will be super busy. Will be working from Tuesday till Friday. Will head to the gym after work and then after, it is revision for my Fitness Instructor Course, aka FIC. Saturday and Sunday will be practical lessons for my FIC.

So as you can see, this week is gonna be fully packed.

Jia You!

Life goes on...

2010-04-06T23:38:00.002+08:00

Well, here's how my week will look like from this month onwards for the next two months.

Mondays to Fridays will be spent working at Red Bull. On days they don't need me, I'll take a break or if I'm lucky, land an assignment from the modelling agency.

Gym will sadly commence only after work which by the time I reach home, change and reach the gym, would be around 8-ish. Then its a 2 hour work out and dinner at around 10. Sleep follows after that and the cycle resumes itself.
Saturdays and Sundays will be spent on my Fitness Instructor Course and it is essentially a whole day course which means to say, my weekends are burnt as well. I'm only left with weekend nights to relax or then again, hit the gym.

Somehow, I'll have to find a way to maintain my 5 day workout regime. Just got to dig in and find that strength to pull through the next two months.
Of course needless to say, I'd definitely squeeze out all the spare time that I have for my beloved too. I got to see her too!

Life goes on...

2010-03-31T23:24:00.002+08:00

So right now my life is pretty much like this.

I work at Red Bull Singapore from 9.30 am to 6.30 pm. When I knock off, I get home, change and head to the gym. By the time I get back home, it'd be around 10 pm. Game a little, chat with my hot babe from 11 pm till 12 mn then I hit the sacks.

There are days that I do not work at Red Bull and its either because I have modeling assignments or the company doesn't need me to go in for that day.

Here and there, I earn a few hundred bucks, barely enough to keep me going. But I suppose as long as I keep my spending low, I'll scrape by.

My Fitness Instructor Course will commence on the 10th of April, Saturday and will run for 2 months on every weekend. At the end of which - if I pass, I'll be a fully certified personal instructor. So any of you who wants a hotter looking bod, come look for me then yea? Haha...

Life goes on...

2010-03-12T16:09:00.000+08:00

Being at home for too long makes you emo.

Life goes on...

2010-03-10T14:27:00.001+08:00

Just can't seem to find the motivation to study. *sighs*

Life goes on...

2010-03-03T21:28:00.000+08:00

23rd birthday celebration dinner with my angel on the 2nd of March, 2010. We dined at Tao's at POMO (formerly known as Paradiz Centre) and the food was surprisingly good. It is a fusion of East and West at an affordable price too. 7 course ala carte dinner costs us roughly around 70 bucks. Go try it!

And of course, here's the present,

Because money only gets you the brand but love is what puts your name on it.

I LOVE YOU, DEAR!

Also, I'd like to thank all who attend my party. Will upload the pictures when I get it. Till then, take care guys!

Life goes on...

2010-02-26T12:55:00.002+08:00

Me: Hello, is this Jane's Cake Station?

Owner: Yup.

Me: I would like to order a cake for this sat.

Owner: Ok, what flavour & size would you like?

Me: Erm, I'll have a small chocolate fudge cake.

Owner: Right, and what would you like written on the cake?

Me: Happy Birthday, Alvin.

Owner: Ok. Your name please?

Me: Alvin

*Momentary silence*

Ever tried ordering your own birthday cake? It just feels so weird...

Life goes on...

2010-02-14T00:16:00.000+08:00

Allow my 'daughter', Xiao Hong to wish all of you a Happy and Prosperous lunar new year. May all be blessed with good health and good grades for all those who are studying! As for those who are working already, "Huat ah!". Haha...

Life goes on...

2010-02-12T00:03:00.003+08:00

Haiz... 2nd day in a row. I'm not pointing fingers or blaming anyone. I know its difficult and I totally understand. Yet it saddens me, to see you in such a state. These are difficult times and as I stare down the road we have to take, it doesn't seem to be getting any easier.

Gambatei!

Life goes on...

2010-01-25T21:14:00.002+08:00

As we grow older, our priorities, objectives and perception changes.

We tend to have less time to meet up with old friends and even lesser time to socialize and make new friends. What time we have, we spend it on work, self and family. Family in the sense of gf/wife inclusive. I mean at this point in time, those of us who are in a r/s are in it till the end. No longer like in a past where more often than not, its just a case of puppy love or infatuation.

Then again, I'm not asking one to pin the blame on their partner for the lack of social life. But rather its a gradual and slow change in priorities - where we begin our family of our own. I believe its the way nature programmes us to be. Nothing much we can do about that.

Objectives wise, I'd say most people right now would be looking to earn their "pot of gold". To educate themselves so as to earn more. Gone were the days when all we thought of were, better sports skills, better gaming skills. For me, I've kind of given up of basketball but definitely not my gym work outs. Studies and work as just as important too.

Hmmm... Perception. Perhaps its the wisdom we've accumulated since coming into existence. Made us wiser, made us think and analyze before we do something. Life along the way has taught us a few pretty good lessons. More often then not, we end up taking life's tests first before being taught the lesson. Irony isn't it? Haha...

So sad as it is... Needs and wants differ, life style as a result changes. Friends seem to be going their own ways and therefore harder to meet up. Man... Growing up is quite a pain no?

Life goes on...

2010-01-22T21:52:00.004+08:00

Finally, the end is here. Today marks the end of my National Service. Its been 2 years since and in my opinion, I feel that I've changed in many ways. Most importantly, changed for the better.

These 2 years saw many other changes too. I went from being a lonely single to a fortunate lover. A guy who is attached to a girl who loves him more than she loves herself. I saw myself through 2 operations, an ankle fracture and a back injury. Been through hell and now, I'm finally out of it.

*Takes in a breathe of air*

Somehow the air just smells different. Perhaps its because there's a tinge of freedom mixed in it now. How wonderful it is again to see my pink IC.

No doubt, I'm glad to leave the armed forces, I'm also sad to leave behind all the wonderful people that I've had the privileged to know and honor to work with. To those people in 143 Sqn, thank you for giving me such wonderful memories. May our friendship live on till then end of time.

Cheers to all!

Life goes on...

2010-01-19T00:14:00.000+08:00

ORD clearance starts tomorrow.

Joy.

Life goes on...

2010-01-12T20:24:00.000+08:00

11 more days to ORD!

Life goes on...

2010-01-04T22:47:00.002+08:00

Got myself 2 job interviews, one as a model for a bridal studio and another as a weight management coach.

Sounds kinda exciting thou. I hope the land the jobs cause its just so cool to be doing stuff that you like.

Life goes on...

2010-01-01T01:38:00.001+08:00

Goodbye 2009. Hello 2010!

Happy New Year guys and girls!

Life goes on...

2009-12-23T21:55:00.003+08:00

11 working hours on Monday. Afternoon shift on Tues, with insane amount of jobs. Morning shift today. Worked from 8 till 6 pm today.

Friend's wedding prep to do after work and wedding tomorrow.

X'mas on Friday.

Seconday school friend gathering on Saturday. One of the two organizers.

CPR course on Sunday morning, 8 am.

Back to work on Monday, 4 am.

Dear God, give me the strength. Or a break would be nice.

Life goes on...

2009-12-14T14:45:00.001+08:00

I hate procrastination.

Then again, I only have myself to blame.

Life goes on...

2009-12-13T01:08:00.000+08:00

About a week ago, I watched the movie, "Yes Man". Is it one word or two? Anyways, that movie left quite an impact on me.

It sort of made me realize what Jim Carrey, realized in the movie. And that is, if you start saying 'Yes', then opportunities will find its way to you.

And so I began my journey armed with this new mentality and thus far, it has been quite a success. For one, I agreed to become an emcee for an Air Force event which amongst its list of guest includes a Brigadier General, Cols and Liet Cols.

I was quite hesitant initially when asked to take upon the task. But thinking of the movie and my new mentality, I agreed. I was very nervous honestly. When I got my script, I kept practicing at home and at the auditorium during dry runs. The stress mounted as the event day neared. And as the stress mounted my performance dipped.

I kept forgetting lines, kept mixing their sequences. Looked and sounded awfully tense on stage and was a total mess. I asked God for strength, sort of like looked up and said, "God, give me the strenght", and my girlfriend prayed for me.

The day finally came and that morning, I woke up with renewed strength and confidence. I told myself, no stress, just take it easy and do my best.

And viola! The event was a success and I actually had a few compliments from my superiors. At the end of the day, I was happy that I took up the offer. It was an experience and an exposure that did me well. It gave my self confidence a huge boost.

So if an opportunity comes by, give it a shot, say Yes. Who knows? You might end up benefiting from it.

Life goes on...

2009-12-08T23:33:00.000+08:00

Current weight: 85.3 kg

Body Fat %: 22.2%

Lost 1 kg and fat % went up by 4 times.

Zzzz....

Like goes on...

2009-11-29T18:49:00.001+08:00

My, my... Just look at the counter. 55 days to go.

Life goes on...

2009-11-23T23:25:00.003+08:00

Ok, so I was the gym this evening as usual. Lifting and heaving and chatting with some of the regulars there. Then one of them, a guy around 60 whose in quite a good physical condition for his age, asked if I know who Rain is.

I'm not exactly into K-pop and stuff, but I do know there's this Korean singer called, Rain. Now apparently, he got to know about Rain because Rain is starring in this new Hollywood movie, Ninja, Assassins. And from what he has seen/heard, Rain trained for 5 hours each day just to get into shape for the movie. Now for a 60+ year old guy to be talking about this 20+ guy, Rain has to be something.

So I got home and Googled for Rain and this picture just blew me away, girls be prepared.

I mean seriously. I don't have to be buffed up like an Olympian bodybuilder but damn, just having a body like his will do. Damn!

Daily training for 6 months, 5 hours each and you get that. Damn... Just damn... I'm speechless right now.

Just when can I get that?

Life goes on...

2009-11-09T21:57:00.002+08:00

Haiz... This is going to be one troubled post. To think I was so looking forward to the end of my squadron's audit week. I was suddenly dropped with a bomb. Something happened at my work place today which I'm not allowed to reveal. It has implicated me and now I have to go through interviews, questionings and statement takings till the culprit is caught. Worst, I may even have to sit through a lie detector test.

Seriously, just two more months to ORD. Can't it be more smoother?

Give me a break.

Life goes on...

2009-10-28T23:35:00.002+08:00

Wow, Oct 4th till now. That's like 2 weeks since my last post. To think that I've haven't been posting goes to show that life is pretty much the same old. Nothing interesting or out of the blue or should I say "Boomz" happened.

Bought a drama series last week thou, The Legend of Bruce Lee. I think its showing on Channel 8 at this point in time. First time I'm watching something that's related to him and I must admit if the show holds true to Bruce Lee's way of life than Bruce Lee is one heck of an amazing fella.

Having completed half of the drama it has inspired me to work harder in the gym and pick up Muay Thai again. Haha... Which I'd probably do so in uni.

Life's been good to me, can't complain. Work's getting a little more stressful than usual, which is to be expected as our squadron will be under an audit next week. Can't wait for it to be over.

Life goes on...

2009-10-04T18:19:00.002+08:00

Well, I finally received a wedding invite. Was invited to my friend's wedding last night at YCK's Grassroot Club.

As usual the dinner didn't start on time and it was a good thing I ate a little before leaving home. The food pretty good in my opinion, no complains.

Being the 15th of the 8th lunar month, there were 4 weddings being held there! Almost stepped into the wrong one. Haha... Good thing I didn't part with my ang-pao until I saw the groom.

Watching the bride and groom walk down the aisle, watching their montage, I kinda had that "what-if" it was me thought. Wouldn't it be so nice if it was me whose standing there with my loved one? Haha...

Something to think about.

Life goes on...

2009-09-26T00:55:00.000+08:00

Life seems to be wearing me out these days. Work is getting tougher, hours getting longer. Worst part is, the end is no where near and its only going to get worst. Audit will take place soon. Preparation will be tedious.

Am on physio now, got to do those exercises diligently everyday. And those stuff ain't easy. Kind of puts me off every time I get down to it.

Gym doesn't even seem important to me now. Which is worrying me. How can my hobby/sport/lifestyle be waning?

Haiz... Give me a break please.

Life goes on...

2009-09-17T22:44:00.000+08:00

EnSabathNur is trying very hard to stop spending and start saving.

But its so hard when there's so many things that he wants to get. Haiz...

Life goes on...

2009-09-04T23:07:00.000+08:00

Well, its been 3 days since my return from Hong Kong so here's a little update of how the trip went.

As I was preparing for this trip, I found myself struggling to find clothes enough for this 5 day trip. A sudden realization it was, that its been a long time since I last bought clothes and I'm starting to run out of them. So I set my mind on getting clothes for this trip, which I did.

I came back with 7 tops, 2 berms, 1 cargo pants, a pair of Nike shoes and a bag. The shoe was a bonus thou. It kinda gave way half way through the trip and thus I had no choice but to get a new pair. Haha...

Food wise, it was a bliss. It was dim sum, seafood and jap food throughout the trip. The best part of the jap food that I had was the salmon sashimi. Have you ever eaten a slice of salmon sashimi that is 1 cm thick? Gosh the taste was heavenly.

Also being kinda older now, I traveled on my own to some parts of Hong Kong via the MTR or our equivalent of MRT. My dad was either too tired to walk anymore or my mom was at the saloon doing her hair. So instead of staying in my room and wasting the hours away, I went of to venture on my own.

Looking back, I'd say I enjoyed the most this trip. That's why Hong Kong's my favorite holiday destination, that was until I went to Japan. Haha...

Life goes on...

2009-08-25T09:42:00.000+08:00

Am finally going for a long overdue holiday! This time, its Hong Kong, my second favorite destination behind Japan.

Will be leaving this Friday and coming back on Tuesday.

Ah, finally a trip out of this island.

Life goes on...

2009-08-20T20:50:00.000+08:00

Here's a little update on my back. Seeing an ortho specialist every Saturday. This specialist uses trigger point therapy to relieve the pain in my back and so far, its my back is responding quite well. Also, some exercises have been imparted to me to which I am to faithfully carry out everyday. The back hasn't felt this good since before it was injuried. =)

And while I'm still under 11B, full medical coverage by the government. I've gone to see a specialist in TTSH and we've arranged for MRI and X-ray to be done to make certain that there's nothing serious. Also, I've been booked an appointment to do physiotherapy. Like finally, I'm actually going for one.

Really hoping to make a full recovery and be able to hit the gym once again. The itch of not gym-ing is starting to get to me.

Life goes on...

2009-08-16T21:29:00.000+08:00

Come on baby. Don't leave me behind. We'll forge ahead together. You and I towards the dream that we share.

Life goes on...

2009-08-08T01:00:00.000+08:00

Happy Anniversay Angel! =)

Here's to one great year and many more ahead. Cheers!

Life goes on...

2009-08-02T16:36:00.000+08:00

I've decided to hang up my training gloves for the sake of my injured back. This final resolve started last Wednesday when I injured my back again at work and by the time evening came, it got so bad that I could barely move.

Of course, I skipped my gym session that night and headed over to the sinseh's place where she massaged my back and did those Chinese TCM stuff.

Ever since then, I have yet to get back to the gym. Though its only been 4 days since, I'm starting to feel the difference me. Some how, I'm just so lethargic and filled with sadness.

I'm at a point where I've never been before in terms of gains and body weight. I've finally broke the 80kg barrier and am currently 84.5 kg. Yet whenever I think of it, I'm filled with sadness for I know that for everyday I don't step into the gym, I'll eventually loose it all.

All those hard work EVERYDAY for the past few months. Down the drain.

And not only that, its just so darn depressing to not be able to do the stuff you like. To not be able lift weights, its just so darn depressing.

Life goes on...

2009-07-30T22:42:00.000+08:00

You know what's the most amazing thing I find about Facebook?

It is that it allows us to find and connect with long lost friends. I'm so surprised to find that I'm actually able to contact friends whom over the years I've lost contact with. The most amazing thing about that, is the change that everyone has undergone. Gone were the days when everyone were geeky, innocent and young.

Everyone has matured, found their own niches in life and there's one that's even married! Also who would have thought that one of the guys who was well known for his poor personal hygene back then would actually end up being a model and winner of Mr Asia award?

Such is life, where everything is so unpredictable. But at least everyone or most of whom I've added on Facebook seem to be doing rather well. Haha... Judging upon everyone's accomplishments and comparing them to myself, I seem to have a long way to go to catch up.

Life goes on...

2009-07-25T23:03:00.000+08:00

Met up with my angel the night before for a midnight show. We settled for Harry Potter and The Half Blood Prince at 11.45pm.

Having worked the whole day, I was considerably tired by the time we got to the theatre. But I was quite sure that the movie would be able to keep me awake as Harry Potter movies by far have been rather full of action and suspense.

But damn, was I wrong. These latest offering of Harry Potter was nothing but dilogue, dilogue and more dilogue. The only parts that actually kept me wake were Dumbledore's death and Harry trying to fight off those underwater creatures.

The movie was so darn long and so darn boring. I don't know about you guys but I was utterly disappointed. Should just wait for it to show on Channel 5.

Oh and Harmoine is turning out to be quite a fine lady I must say. Haha...

Life goes on...

2009-07-23T22:59:00.001+08:00

I've passed my tractor test! Haha... Took my tractor test today and I must admit that although I've been driving for years now, taking that test still made me nervous.

After taking the test, I had to do some paperwork and it was only then did I realise that I was so tense. And I realised that I was tense only because I could barely write without my hand shaking. Haha...

The best part is, I'm the first NSF in my squardon to hold a tractor lisence!

Life goes on...

2009-07-09T23:01:00.005+08:00

Just some of the many photos taken at the graduation,

The graduation ceremony, 1.5 hours. The photo taking sessions thereafter, 2.5 hours. Haha...

Life goes on...

2009-07-08T23:59:00.002+08:00

Today was the big day for my Angel. It was her commencement day, the day of her university graduation ceremony. Just like Michael Jackson's passing, the full impact of what that meant didn't hit me until the closing moments of the ceremony. There and then, hearing the closing speeches made by the graduates struck me that she is done with studying. Its over. She's ready to enter workforce, ready to contribute to society and in a sense, live on her own.

What a stark comparison it is when I put myself into the picture. Here I am, with 6 more months to go to complete my national responsibility and another 1 year away from entering university and another 5 years away from my graduation. Then and only then will I be a fresh graduate, ready to contribute. Its such a long road ahead. Damn...

Today was a big day too, in another way. Today marks the 11 month of our relationship. Here we are, just a month shy of our first year and looking back, I feel we've come a long way. She used to say, time flies and I'd say, no it doesn't. But now that I look at where we are today, I'd say damn, time flew and we've journeyed a long way.

Just want to say that Angel, I'm so proud of you today. Watching you go up there and get your degree makes me so darn happy and honored! Way to go, dear!

Life goes on...

2009-06-30T21:44:00.002+08:00

I know its been a few days since Michael Jackson's passing, but it was only up till today that I truly felt it. That sudden void in my stratosphere, that there's something missing. Something that's been there for so long is suddenly gone.

I grew up idolizing MJ. My first CD album was MJ's Dangerous. Till today, I still listen to it. As a matter of fact, its in my car's CD player ready for me to play whenever I need a jolt of Jam or Dangerous or Black or White.

Watching his videos on youtube really made me miss him even more. I suppose its just like what they always say. You don't really appreciate someone or someting till they are gone. So like the rest of the world, I miss MJ. Even more so now that his gone.

Thank you for all those great songs and memories.

RIP

Life goes on...

2009-06-29T21:12:00.002+08:00

I know there are some quizzes on Facebook that are ridiculous, stupid and nonsensical. But I did one today and surprisingly, the result was pretty darn accurate.

Here's what it read,

"Your mask is strength. You try hard to fend for yourself. You do not let others do things for you. You often need to be in control of a situation, even if you can't handle it alone. You are always putting on a front, even if you don't feel strong at all. You don't let others see you when you're vulnerable, because you barely let your self be. Despite your flaws of always trying to act strong, you are a strong person, with strong character that can do anything you put your mind to. A lot of the times you really don't need anyone, and are perfectly capable on your own. However, there are times you find yourself wanting to let someone in but are not really sure how to."

That last line there really struck me every hard. So often I find myself at a lost when it comes to approaching friends.

Life goes on...

2009-06-25T21:32:00.002+08:00

EnSabathNur is struggling with his lower back these days. Ever since he injured it in the gym 2 months ago, his been battling with back spasms, back aches and sharp pain. At least some consolation can be taken into the face that the spasms and sharp pain have subsided and all that's left is that constant dull aching pain. In dialect we call it "cing".

Not that he is too stubborn to stop working out. But fact is, he has invested so much time (6 days a week) and so much money on his nutrition, stopping now would mean having everything go down the drain. Just last weekend, he decided to give his body a 3 days break. No workout, nothing. On the fourth day, his body conveniently lost 1 kg. That 1 kg would take me eventually a week to put back.

So its a battle of balance. To workout and not strain the back. To gain weight and not completely stop working out. Its tough and he is frustrated.

Life goes on...

2009-06-15T22:03:00.002+08:00

So here's what happened over the weekend.

He went down to Marina Square on the last day of the PC show to Creative to get his sound card and speakers. All in all, he spent $398 but saved $50. Now all that's left to upgrade is the monitor and perhaps the graphics card in the new future.

Sunday he brought his family and girlfriend down to Tung Lok Signatures at Central for an early Father's Day celebration dinner. It cost a bomb. Help was needed with the bill and now, for the rest of month he'll either eat grass or air.

Met up with Glenda and Lydia for dinner. Glad to have been able to meet up with them. Its been a long time since and just thinking about it, we've all come quite a long way. Cheers to our friendship and the years ahead.

Life goes on...

2009-06-08T22:52:00.003+08:00

EnSabathNur is lovesick. Its such an awful feeling.

But he'll be ok come midnight tomorrow. Because that's when his angel will return from Taiwan.

Life goes on...

2009-06-03T23:17:00.001+08:00

I know I promised to put up pictures of my new room but its still in a mess. And I don't want to put up pictures of a messy room. So give me some time to pack up before taking the pictures.

Been hitting the gym everyday except for Saturdays when I go for my run. Hope to be able to achieve my target as time go by. Its also because of this, that lately I get tired as the night progresses. I suppose its a good thing. So pardon me, if you guys see less of me.

My girl's in Taiwan now, having a good time I'm sure. Haha... Kind of weird not having her around. Makes me feel... Lonely.

Life goes on...

2009-05-23T21:52:00.000+08:00

Am gonna spend the night in my new room. Its almost done!!

Life goes on...

2009-05-22T12:47:00.002+08:00

In the midst of packing my room, I've decided to take a short break to blog about some recent events.

To start of, I took my IPPT yesterday and I did surprisingly well. I really didn't expect to achieve that kind of a score especially since I haven't been exercising since my wisdom tooth op on the 2nd of April.

I scored gold for all my static stations but got a silver for my 2.4 km run. And as a result of which my total will be a silver. But I'm happy anyways, since all I was expecting was just a pass. Haha...

As to why I'm packing my room, I'm going to renovate my room tomorrow! The old furniture will be replaced by custom made ones that would make my room more spacious. Plus, the new furniture would be more suitable for a young adult. If you've seen my old one, you'd realize why a change is needed.

During this period, I've transformed from a "everything-also-keep" person to a "everything-can-throw,-throw" person. Haha... I'd also like to take this opportunity to make a shout out to my girlfriend whose been coming by these few days to help me out with packing.

Thank you, Dear! =)

Oh wells, shall post a pic of my new room soon. Till then!

Life goes on...

2009-05-17T21:07:00.002+08:00

Just got home from a 3 days, 2 nights chalet and boy was it was blast. Got 2 rooms from Costa Sands, Downtown East for just $300 with the NTUC member card.

Well, spent the noon of Friday setting up the place and getting everything in order. Went for a midnight show after that. We caught the 0140 show, Angels & Demons. Its damn good. I recommend everyone to watch it!

Saturday morning was spent having breakfast at Mac's. We barely made it on time for breakfast. Haha... Went over to Wild Wild Wet thereafter. It was my first time there and I think for a half a day of fun, its not too bad. The ride that really shook me was the viking one. My heart almost came out. Haha...

Dinner on Saturday was BBQ and followed by a birthday cake for Tang Hoe. Must admit, I quite like the banana & chocolate flavored cake. Nice!

Sunday came and before we knew it, it was all over. Packed up and dragged our half awake ass back home. Got to admit, I'm feeling a little down at this point in time. So much fun and joy just whizzed by over the 3 days and now, I'm back to reality.

EnSabathNur reports to work at 0700 tomorrow.

Life goes on...

2009-05-10T23:21:00.001+08:00

Would you believe me if I told you I brought my girlfriend to see guys parade on stage in just their underpants? Well, that's just what I did.

We went to the 47th National Body Building today and it was a mind blowing experience. I was there not only as a body building enthusiast but also to support a friend of mine who was competing. And damn am I proud to say his the champ for the junior under 65kg category.

So while most of them left after that, I stayed on all the way till the senior man's category. It was totally amazing and inspirational. Super fired up to get that dream figure of mine right now.

Perhaps some time down the road, you guys would go and support/root for me too? Hahaha...

Life goes on...

2009-04-30T16:09:00.003+08:00

I'm at the point whereby my will is no longer strong enough to power my physical body.

The pain, the aches, its terrible... Imagine not being able to stand up straight after squatting down to give your pet cat a pat on its head.

I'm at my limit. And honestly, I find that its awefully pathetic.

Life goes on...

2009-04-26T00:13:00.002+08:00

Since the departure of my maid, I've taken over some of the daily house hold chores at home. So far what I've done includes,

1. Laundry
2. Ironing
3. Cooking
4. Vacuuming
5. Washing of dishes
6. Washing of stove

What I intend to do over the next two days,

7. Mopping of floor
8. Washing of car

As a result of which, I have sacrificed my gym hours as well as my "alone-in-my-room" hours. On the bright side, having a stubborn nature does help when it comes to chores. Stubbornness will transcend to alot of stuff such as, "I-don't-believe-I-can't-remove-this-stain". And in the end, the stain disappears.

Perhaps I can be considered a highly eligible bachelor? Or maybe all those clothes and dish wishing has made my skin thick. Haha...

Life goes on...

2009-04-17T21:33:00.002+08:00

Work started at 5.30 am today and as a result, I had to get up at 4.15 am. The good thing was, since work started early, it ended early as well. Reached home at around 1.30 pm, had my lunch, rested and met up with the guys for a game of basketball.

Then that was when it happened. My shoulder dislocated. I was so angry at myself. I jeopardized my gym routine, put my shoulder into that painful process again just for that hour of 'fun'.

You know what was the worst part? I've lost my passion for basketball a long time ago. The only reason I played was because of the guys. No I'm not blaming the guys for my injury. I blame myself, for not being mentally strong enough to say no, for not being able to think and rationalize the consequences.

For that I have only myself to blame and perhaps that's why I'm so angry. Therefore, I swear I'll never ever touch a basketball every again.

Never ever.

Life goes on...

2009-04-16T21:10:00.002+08:00

EnSabathNur is quite unhappy and disappointed with the way he is right now. He feels that there is certainly lots of room for improvement.

How strong is his will to change for the better? Will he succeed?

We'll see how he goes from here onwards.

Life goes on...

2009-04-08T00:20:00.000+08:00

Sometimes I just don't understand women...

I'm not angry or upset. Just confused.

Life goes on...

2009-04-05T00:31:00.001+08:00

Helping a friend to advertise,

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Ladies who love blog shopping, do check it out ok?

Life goes on...

2009-04-03T16:58:00.004+08:00

Just before going to bed last night, I went to rinse my mouth with the mouth wash that was dispensed to me by the pharmacist. Who would have thought that it would hurt so bad that I ended up having to take another dose of painkiller.

So as of today, I've taken 2 doses of panadol to ease the pain both yesterday. Haven't touched them today and doubt I would for the rest of my mc.

Managed to eat steam egg and the rest was basically liquid diet. The gum seems to bleed more when I eating. Haha... As a result, everything tastes like iron.

Life goes on...

2009-04-02T23:15:00.002+08:00

Went down to National Dental Centre at like 11 am but only started operating on my wisdom tooth at 3.30pm. The worst part is, I started fasting since last night at 9 pm. No food and water all the way till my surgery was over.

Of course, I cheated and stole a sip of water here and there. The long wait was made only bearable because my gf was with me. Else I think I would have exploded.

In any case, the surgery was a success and I'm only capable of a liquid diet so far. Hopefully by Saturday, I can start eating some soft solid diet.

Life goes on...

Thank you, Angel for being there for me.

2009-04-01T23:12:00.001+08:00

Finally, the day I've dreaded is round the corner. Just a few more hours left before I go under the knife to remove all 4 wisdom tooth.

I'm so not looking forward to it. Am going to will myself away from the painkillers and will try my best.

Hope I don't loose weight. That's all I ask for.

Life goes on...

2009-03-28T11:21:00.002+08:00

Damn, why does it feel so cold... It hurts, really.

I'm just putting on masquerade.

Life goes on...

2009-03-26T21:55:00.001+08:00

You know what keeps me going to the gym other than the fact that I want to gain weight?

That is the chance to feel the pain in the muscles as you work out. Just like today, the instructor taught me a new way of training my abs. It hurt so much, I not only couldn't finish the set but broke out laughing at the pain. The pain just felt so good.

I know I sound sadistic but this pain feels good. Its amazing. And honestly, I don't get this alot - pain that is intense enough to make me laugh.

Life goes on...

2009-03-24T22:25:00.002+08:00

Work today was fantastic. Reported to camp at 0900 and was dismissed at 1200. All we did was attend briefings and have lunch. Haha...

Reached home shortly after, surfed the net and out I went again. Headed out to the gym with mom and had lunch at the club.

After that we went for facial. Yea, facial. I just couldn't stand the sight of all those black heads. It was my first time there and I got the same reaction I normally get when I meet new people. However, on top of my height, they were gushing over my look. It was so totally awkward. Perhaps, I'm just not use to being described as good looking.

It any case, the facial on the overall was splendid, professional. The only part I hated was when she had to pull out all those black heads. It hurts.

Well, that pretty sums up my Tuesday. Wednesday awaits me.

Life goes on...

2009-03-17T23:36:00.002+08:00

Met up with my dear god sis today for dinner and its been a long time since we last met. This dinner was way over due. Haha...

We went to a Japanese restaurant for a buffet dinner and we sat there for 2 hours slowly ordering and eating. I think this is probably the longest I've ever spent dining at a restaurant.

After that we headed over to Paris Park for a drink. Had like half a pint of beer each and like she said, beer from the tap tastes different from those in a bottle. It was so much easier down the throat. Haha...

Well, that's all for now. Will update again soon.

Life goes on...

Dear sis - I'm sure God has everything planned out. :)

2009-03-15T22:56:00.002+08:00

Ladies and gentlemen,

I present to you, Mount Fuji from the sky.

Life goes on...

2009-03-10T23:01:00.002+08:00

And every time I look up Mount Fuji on Google, I stare at those beautiful pictures and seemingly immerse myself in it. Sometimes its so real, I can even smell the air... So beautiful...

I miss Japan...

Life goes on...

2009-03-09T22:08:00.002+08:00

Its been a long time since a television actually caught my attention and today there was finally one.

Was watching channel 8's 9 pm drama serial and I must say its pretty funny and interesting. Found myself glued to my sit even though I was done with my dinner. At one point, it got so funny that my dad who was sitting on the floor, burst out laughing and ended up lying on his back laughing.

For someone who hardly laughs, this is really something. Haha... So if your free, take a sit, enjoy the show. I'm certainly looking forward to tomorrow's episode.

Life goes on...

2009-03-08T22:32:00.002+08:00

Right so the day started off like any other Sundays. Gym in the morning followed by lunch at my granny's place.

Reached home at about 3pm and started doing housework till like 5.30pm. Finally managed to get to sit down and watch some Family Guy online.

After that, we headed out to my uncle's place on the intention that after passing him some rice kuey, we'd head out some where nearby for a simple dinner. But who would have thought, my uncle's family was bring him out for a jap dinner to celebrate his birthday. So we were invited to come along and we did.

Dinner was jap buffet and honestly, it was pretty good. Super full right now, but absolutely satisfied. =)

Life goes on...

2009-03-03T12:51:00.000+08:00

Whohoooo...

Happy 22nd Birthday to myself. Haha...

Thanks for all the well wishes guys!

Life goes on...

2009-02-23T00:14:00.002+08:00

Celebrated a belated V-day with my girl yesterday at Sentosa. The day started of fine - bright and sunny, but mid way it started to pour heavily. It was a total downer, such a wash out. My mood practically disappeared.

We did the Tiger Sky Tower or what was previously known as the Carlsberg Sky Towel. Compared to a year ago which was when I last took a ride there, the developments have "grown" alot. At least now you can pretty much make out what buildings are being built.

Next we did Images of Singapore which is pretty much the same as last year's. Nothing new there, not significant ones at least.

Then it started to pour... So we put our Luge ride on hold and went for the 4D cinema. The ride was so-so? Haha... Didn't feel real enough to me.

It was still raining when we left. So we decided to have our lunch at Koufu foodcourt. The curry katsu don was... *Sighs* Regretted ordering it. Should have gone for something else instead.

By the time lunch was over, so was the rain. So we took the bus to Fort Siloso for our tour. Was kind of surprised at how much I was enjoying myself there. Although honestly I wasn't expecting much but I ended up enjoying the tour. Somehow it has sparked off an interest in me to read up on our nation's history especially during the war.

Last and finally, we took the Luge - twice. Haha... Like the saying goes, "Once is never enough".

Afterall the attractions we went down to Siloso beach to unwind. I took my first swim in the sea. Haha... It was freaking cold, especially after the rain from earlier. So we soaked ourselves till the sun set and took a bath before leaving the island.

Dinner was a some chinese steamboat buffet restaurant. Horrible. Totally horrible. The next time you go to Vivo and you see this signboard advertising about some $13.90++ steamboat buffet. DO NOT PATRONISE! It maybe cheap but damn the food selection is very limited and worst, stale. The food wasn't fresh at all.

That pretty much was my Saturday. Haha... Alot of complains right? =p

Life goes on...

2009-02-14T01:32:00.001+08:00

Even the best laid plans can go array.

*sighs*

Life goes on...

2009-02-09T22:23:00.000+08:00

EnSabathNur is stretched pretty thin these few weeks. Finding it very hard to juggle between family, relationship, friends and self.

Just today alone, he left home at 5 am and got home only at 5 pm.

Life goes on...

2009-02-08T17:06:00.001+08:00

Sunday, Feb 8th, 2009 -- You have a lot on your plate today, but others may not be fully aware of your commitment to getting the job done.

At least the horoscope guy got it right...

Life goes on...

2009-02-06T23:09:00.001+08:00

Stress. Frustration. Disgust.

Words to describe work at this point in time. One more week to go till the annual audit is over. And 3 more Saturdays burnt thanks to 24 hour duty.

What a month.

Life goes on...

2009-02-05T23:01:00.000+08:00

Today is the first today I can say with pride that I've truly seen comradeship in the squadron. And believe it or not, it all happened because of one man.

This friend of ours' is a regular in the air force who has been selected to be the pioneer batch who will go over to the States to undergo training on the F15-SG. So we decided to have a farewell dinner for him.

The morning shift started work at 9 am that morning and the afternoon shift came in at 1 pm. Work ended at 6 pm for the morning crew but as there were guys in the afternoon shift who wanted to go for the dinner, the morning crew decided to stay behind to help them clear up the work so that all of us could go for the dinner together.

It was truly a sight a behold and never who I have thought I'd get to see such a sight. Everyone coming together, helping each other so that we can all enjoy a nice farewell dinner together.

To Kent Yao, you've just made the impossible possible. All the best to your training. Cheers!

Life goes on...

2009-02-01T22:38:00.004+08:00

The chinese lunar new year is just about coming to an end. Thou its only the first week, the hype pretty much dives down all the way till the last day. So to sum my new year now would just be about the right time.

Chinese new year this year was pretty much the same as last year. Although I must admit I look completely different. Haha... To think last year I was in my first 2 weeks of army life when CNY beckoned and now I'm a one year soldier.

Here's a pic of me a year ago during CNY,

This is this year's pic,

And of course, there's someone new this new year,

Chinese New Year couldn't have gone any better. =)

Life goes on...

2009-01-29T22:39:00.002+08:00

First came the competition, next up is the annual audit and after that, we're going to do 24 hour ops duty. This really is the year of the Ox.

I so need a holiday. Somewhere cheap, just about 3 days would be fine. In fact, as long as I leave this country, it really doesn't matter where I go. I just need to get out.

Life goes on...

2009-01-26T23:39:00.002+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year to all my friends and relatives! May all be well and happy this new year. Cheers!

Life goes on...

2009-01-24T23:38:00.000+08:00

As of today I'm a year soldier. 1 year down, another 1 to go.

Life goes on...

2009-01-22T16:40:00.002+08:00

Been real busy, tired and lousy the past few days, thus the lack of updates. But fret not, I'm pretty much back to my old self.

The RSAF was having a inter squadron competition and I was selected to represent my squadron. Talk about the pride and joy. Yet, apart from that, it was a pretty miserable experience.

Work these 2 weeks has been a killer. An average of 10-12 hours from Monday to Saturday under the hot sun. Can you remember when it was the last time it rained? Yes, its that bad and now I'm burnt pretty badly. Not to mention that Chinese New Year is round the corner and I'd most probably be visiting relatives and friends with peeling skin all over my face and arms. Just imagine...

As if that wasn't enough, some family members just don't understand how tiring it was for me. They expect me to do things that I would have normally done. Yet they have forgotten or perhaps just don't give a damn and expect me to do 101 things. Oh and of course sarcasm was included as well.

That's being real supportive right there.

Give me a break man!

Life goes on...

2009-01-11T13:47:00.001+08:00

Suddenly I find myself in dire need of an outlet for my frustrations.

Life goes on...

2009-01-09T20:41:00.001+08:00

What is it?

Shame? Anger? Disappointment? Fear?

I don't know, but I do know one thing. I'm hurting.

Life goes on...

2009-01-04T21:52:00.002+08:00

Finally, I'm going back to work. Its been quite a long break and I'm quite keen on going back. Looking forward to work tomorrow even thou it starts at 0515, and even more looking forward to meeting my girlfriend after that. Haha... If only everyday could be like that, I'd be looking forward to work everyday!

I've decided that starting this year, I would stop finding excuses and start going back to the gym again. I need to keep my figure, keep my arm in my shoulder and get my strength back. Haha... Chinese New Year's round the corner, hope I can put on a few kilos before that.

I realised that lately, most of our conversations involve marriage. I know most of us will be turning 22 this year but isn't it kind of too soon to be talking about stuff like that? As much as I would like to settle down, its quite scary to think that people are already talking about whose most likely to get married first, buying flats and so on. We're only still in our early twenties!

Come to think of it, its just about 3 months more to my 22nd birthday and having attended Lydia's birthday party, I'm rather keen on celebrating mine this year with a party too. Haha... We'll see how it goes when the time comes nearer.

Till then.

Life goes on...

2009-01-01T23:06:00.003+08:00

Met up with my gf on the last day of 2008 after more than a month's time of being away from each other and it was awesome! Haha...

We met up and went over to Lydia's place to celebrate her 21st birthday. Here's a belated "Happy Birthday!" shout out to you Lyd!. Her mom's curry was great and despite my gf's repeated attempts to remind me of how thick my skin was, I still asked if I could go over to her place the next time her mom does curry. Haha... I can't help it, the curry is that good!

We left the party just after 5.30 pm to beat the peak hour jam as well as to meet up with my parents for dinner. Had steamboat for dinner along Rangoon Road and spent the rest of the evening at my place counting down with Channel 5.

Come to think of it, I spent the last day of 2008 and the first day of 2009 with my gf. Quite cool huh? Then again, most other couples would have done that too. Haha...

On a down note thou, I dislocated twice on New Year's. Once at home while climbing the stairs and another in the car while sending my gf home. What a way to start the year. Haha...

Anyways, Happy New Year to all you guys out there. May it be a smooth sailing and great year for all. Cheers!

Life goes on...

2008-12-26T11:30:00.002+08:00

Can't believe but I actually got my lazy ass off my chair and did some spring cleaning in my room. Cleared up all of the mess on the floor and table. Not to mention my cupboard which I packed up as well. Am having quite a sense of achievement thou, especially for someone whose been rotting away at home doing nothing. Haha...

Life goes on...

2008-12-25T02:18:00.002+08:00

Imagine the surprise I got when I called my gf and she told me to get something from my sis and that wasn't the end of it. What I got from my sis was merely a clue written on a card. Of which the similar ones laid within my room leading me from one place to another and eventually to my Christmas gift.

It wasn't easy thou, I got stuck at the 3rd clue which honestly, threw me off guard. It got me thinking for about half an hour before I realized where the next clue was. Haha...

What a surprise it was, truly. Thank you angel!

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE! =)

Life goes on...

2008-12-24T21:10:00.002+08:00

Only Reminds Me Of You 

I see you beside me
it's only a dream,
a vision of what used to be
the laughter, the sorrow
pictures and time
fading to memories.

how could I ever let you go
is it too late to let you know

I tried to run from your side
but each place I hide
it only reminds me of you
when I turn out all the light
even the night
it only reminds me of you.. you...

I needed my freedom
that's what I thought
but I was a fool to believe
my heart lied while you cried
rivers of tears but I was too blind to see

everything we've been though before
now it means so much more

I tried to run from your side
but each place I hide
it only reminds me of you
When it turn out all the light
even the night
it only reminds me of you..

only you..
so come back to me
I'm down on my knees
can't you see..

how could I ever let you go
is it too late to let you know

I tried to run from your side
but each place I hide
it only reminds me of you
when it turn out all the light
even the night it only reminds me of you... you

Only reminds me of you

- by Paul Peterson

Not exactly the song to describe someone whose attached, especially not me. But still its a beautiful song and I'd like to share it with everyone.

Life goes on...