Tuesday, June 29, 2004
So tired... Just came home from Sentosa. On the way home black out man. Haha... Bought alcohol from Cold Storage and I wasn't even asked to show my ic. What a joke. Had a lot fun today playing volleyball & captain's ball in the sea. My class only got one girl and she is huge! Haha... Oh well, very tired. Zzz...
Life goes on...
Monday, June 28, 2004
Today went to Suntec with pals to shop. Ended up not buying anything at all... Haha... After that went to the arcade at Suntec. Then we went to Bishan to play basketball in shirt & jeans. Hot! On my way back on the MRT train, I saw this lady who is 60+ years old and I was unlucky enough to notice her fly was undone. She was wearing jeans. Haha... Just my luck man... In the end I did not tell her. So paiseh...
Life goes on...
Hmm... Its been quite a while since I blogged. Last night I finished an entire bottle of red wine. Was actually too drunk to blog. I nearly threw up at the club. I guess I'm seeking temporary utopia in the word of alcohol... Didn't get a hang over today though. After dinner was chocolate and wine again. Haha... Can't seem to get enough of it. I just realized that at NTUC, I bought 2 bottles of alcoholic drink and they didn't even bother to check my I.C. Oh well... I guess height does give certain advantages outside the basketball court. Haha... Drinking away to a better tomorrow. Cheers!
Life goes on...
Life goes on...
Saturday, June 26, 2004
I just can't get enough of the new projector. Haha... That's probably why I was online only at 12.30 tonight. Tomorrow going to meet up with pals for basketball but I don't think I'll be playing. I'll be too tired and my arm not exactly in good condition. So yeah... *yawns* Time for bed.
Life goes on...
I just can't get enough of the new projector. Haha... That's probably why I was online only at 12.30 tonight. Tomorrow going to meet up with pals for basketball but I don't think I'll be playing. I'll be too tired and my arm not exactly in good condition. So yeah... *yawns* Time for bed.
Life goes on...
Life goes on...
Friday, June 25, 2004
Can you believe it? I actually forgot to blog yesterday. The first time since I started blogging. Haha... Today the new projector came. So now the basement is like a mini-cinema. Its so damn cool... I love it! Now I'm doing weight training and drinking some bitter tasting alcoholic drink. It tastes like Tiger Beer. Haha... Bitter... Bought it from the supermarket and boy, it's a bad mistake. Wasted my money. Haha... But I'm so happy. Never felt better. Its probably because I pour everything out to my sis (have been talking to her every night for about 2 hrs). Haha... Happy!
Life goes on...
Tuesday, June 22, 2004
Shopping again! Haha... Finally got a blue shirt for myself! Bought dumbells for myself too. All I can say is I'm damn happy! Haha...
Life goes on...
Monday, June 21, 2004
Today I went shopping with my family. Was at Suntec and United Square. At the United Square macs, I saw this tall good looking girl working there. I think she was about our age. I went in just to buy coke and see there to observe her (my parents are eleswhere shopping). Then I realised she was a Malay. Haha... I'm not being racist here. Pardon me if I've offended anyone. I slipped the coke and left. Haha... Oh well.. At least she was pretty. But then again, the question is, what's her character like? That's very important. I guess I'll never find out for that matter. Oh! Tomorrow I'm going shopping again. Haha.. This time its Orchard Road. Yeah!
Life goes on...
Went to the club to play basketbll and train at gym this afternoon. A pretty boring Sunday actually. Just ended a phone call with my sis, another 2 hr spent over the phone with her. Tomorrow going down to Suntec to shop. Going to buy shoulder guard (for my dislocated arm).
Life goes on...
Life goes on...
Sunday, June 20, 2004
I guess dinner was worth not going for my camp at SP. Had pizza, sushi and chinese food. Before dinner was red wine, during was sake and after was bailey's irish coffee whiskey. Feeling very high, in fact, nearly blurted out her name... Very tired and uncomfortable. Guess I drank too much. Going to sleep now.
Life goes on...
Saturday, June 19, 2004
Last night wasn't really in a very good mood to blog. Guess its because of what has happened lately. Yesterday, went out with my sis to shop and spent about $160+ on clothes. After that I went back to my sec sch with my sis to collect my O level cert. I've really enjoyed her company. Thanks Glenda. Saw my friends on the basketball court and I went to join them. Ended playing against doctor's advise. My friends were kind enough to not really block me or go against me on the court. Sort of like giving in to me. That feeling really sucks... Made me felt very weak and I hardly got any rebounds. Spent most of the time defending and not doing much. Nowadays when I eat out, I have to be careful of what I eat and if I drink, its plain water only. And I really hate it... I don't know... Life just seems rough now. Not able to eat what I like, play like before and I still cannot forgive myself... Just what am I to do?
Life goes on...
I'm so dissappointed with myself... Why did I allow myself to get hurt? Why was so silly? Now, I'm paying for my mistake... And how long more before I can really forgive myself? Its not about her, its about me... I brought it upon myself... Its all my own doing...
Life goes on...
Life goes on...
Friday, June 18, 2004
Had a really lousy day today. Last night I went to see a chinese doc about my dislocated arm and he said I cannot play basketball, can not drink iced soft drinks and got to train my left arm everyday for the next 3 months. HOW AM I GOING TO LIVE LIKE THAT?!?! Then I went for my annual cardio checkup. (Because I had a major heart disease when I was 2 to 3 years old.) Doc says I might be having another sort of illness although not confirmed yet. Its got to do with my joints. Its not life threatening. So yeah... And one of my heart valves ain't closing normally. And two of friends told me that they could not meet me today. So kinda had a pretty sucky day. Nothing but bad news. Now I have to go on a controlled diet. Life really really sucks! Opening the floodgates of pain and saddness... Hopefully, I'll soon be numb to it... I cannot go on like this...
Life goes on...
Wednesday, June 16, 2004
I feel like a song without the words
A man without a soul
A bird without its wings
A heart without a home
I feel like a knight without a sword
The sky without the sun
cos you are the one
I feel like a ship beneath the waves
A child that lost its way
A door without a key
A face without a name
I feel like a breath without the air
And every day's the same
since you've gone away
I gotta have a reason to wake up in the morning
You used to be the one that put a smile on my face
There are no words that could describe how I miss you
and I miss you everyday
yeah
and I'm never gonna leave your side
and I'm never gonna leave your side again
still holding on girl
I won't let you go
cos when I'm lying in your arms
I know im home
They tell me that a man can lose his mind
Living in the pain
The call in times gone by
The crying in the rain
You know ive wasted half the time
And i'm on my knees again
till you come to me
yeah
I gotta have a reason to wake up in the morning
You used to be the one that put a smile on my face
There are no words that could describe how I miss you
and I miss you everyday
yeah
and I'm never gonna leave your side
and I'm never gonna leave your side again
still holding on girl
I won't let you go
I lay my head against your heart
I know im home
I know im home
I know im home
and I'm never gonna leave your side
and I'm never gonna leave your side again
still holding on girl
I won't let you go
cos when im lying in your arms
i know im home
Life goes on...
How often do you find yourself holding a pack of your favourite cigarates with a lighter held in front of you by someone? Today, that happened not once, not twice but thrice! I'm not saying I smoke when I say I have a favourite brand of cigarates. What I meant was I like the smell of the Dunhill cigarates but I don't smoke. I rejected all of his efforts to make me take my first shot. Haha... The temptation was very great. I'm very very tired. Tomorrow got to go for dental appointment. *sighs* Tired...
Life goes on...
Life goes on...
Tuesday, June 15, 2004
I feel HIGH! Haha... Went shopping today, bought 2 Fila polo shirts and a CD. Lunch was at Yoshinoya and dinner at the food court at the sixth floor of Plaza Singapura. After that, party at my place! Haha... Listened to all the new CDs we bought and then we played tai(3)di(2) with forfeits! All caught on camera. Boy, were we merciless. Haha... Although I did not need to do, I VOLUNTEERED! It was so fun. We did sticky glue, pikuciao and push ups... er... on one and another. Haha... If you went for any Poly camps especially SP, you will know what I'm talking about. I'm living life to its fullest! One life, you've got to live it. And I love it. Anyone knows how to put pic on blog please tell me. Thanks
Life goes on...
Sunday, June 13, 2004
"You give until it hurts. You shower your treasures and favors on people who need to smile. Perhaps the stars inspire your generosity, but the motivation may be more local and personal. Perhaps somewhere deep in your conscience, you're trying to atone for something. Whether or not you're at fault, you can't make it better on your own. Instead of being a one-person Goodwill, why not find a good friend to talk with? Once you discover what's truly bothering you, you can go back to being the soul of generosity with a clear conscience."
"I'm so tired of being here
Supressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone.
You used to captivate me by your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time can not erase
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me"
Supressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone.
You used to captivate me by your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time can not erase
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me"
Saturday, June 12, 2004
Last night I dreamt about the girl I was going to spent the rest of my life with. I could not really see her face. But we were together in my dreams and the magical feeling was there. It was like we knew each other for a long time and we were meant to be together. That feeling was so good, it was like I was on cloud nine. I wonder who she is. They say dreams are reflections of the future. I hope it is true. Haha... Was suppose to go for a camp today but was too tired for it. Ended up not going. Haha...
Life goes on...
Friday, June 11, 2004
After this MMEC camp, I feel different. This seems to be somewhat like a turning point in my life, the second one actually. The first was after coming back from my choir trip to Vienna. I somehow or rather grew up. I think if not for the trip, I would not be the person I am today and certainly not the president of a cca. After this MMEC camp I realised that we've only got one life so why not live it to the fullest? Don't care about what others think of you. Just as long as you enjoy it, go for it! In fact, just today, I did one of my camp dance (a very silly one involving butt movement) at a traffic light junction. Then there was this car next to the traffic light and in the car were 2 girls. After I finished dancing I was like so paiseh. Haha... But it was fun! At least I did it! And one of my friends said one of the girls inside was very pretty. You what's the best thing? That traffic light happens to be the one on the main road outside my house. Haha... Tomorrow yet another camp. This time by its organised by SPSU. I can't wait...
Life goes on...
I was so high today. Went down to SP this morning for the SPSU camp briefing. Then we played ice breaker game. Man, was I enthu! Haha... I led most of the games and forfeit. Haha... FUN! I led the "chop-chilli-chop" and the "peel banana" games. And it was fun doing them with girls, because you can make them kiss you as part of the game. Of course none of them did it. All so shy. Haha... Even the GL (Group Leader) didn't there. Haha... Lunch was at SP Mac's. Then it was off to Potong Pasir for basketball. Ended up spending my time talking about my camp and shouting for everyone to hear. I'm high! So tired now. I still have a dental appointment tomorrow morning. Tired... Gone for only 4 days and I'm beginning to miss all my friends. Haha...
Life goes on...
Life goes on...
Wednesday, June 09, 2004
Just came back from camp, so long didn't blog. Don't know how to blog, got so much to say but don't know how to write. Here's a summary of the 3 days 2 night camp at St' John Island.
1st Day ~ 6/6/04:
We've finally arrived at St' John's Island after an hour's ferry ride. We were split into our groups at the jetty. My group was group4 with only 1 girl... Ok, no surprise, out of the 34 freshmen only 6 were girls. Once we've reached the camp site, we created a name for our group and it was "Touchlight" and our cheer was something like this "When the day is dark, St' John kena black out, who do you call? Torchlight! Say what? Tourchlight! Touchlight no batterery? Opps1" Haha... So funny. After that we drew our flag. Lunch was fish & chips. The cooks are actually seniors who are still studying in SP. At night, we were blindfolded and brought to a "cemetery" but the next morning, we all agreed that is was no cemetery. Haha... It was just an effort by the seniors to spook us with the supernatural. Didn't bath today due to the limited amount of cubicles.
2nd Day ~ 7/6/04:
Last night was so hot! I spelt half naked. Woke up in the middle of the night to take off my shirt. But thank god, after an hour or so, rain came and it was cooling. Slept for about 5 hours. When dawn arrived, out of the 4 groups, 3 groups had their flags stolen by the senior in the middle of the night. And out group still had out flag! Pro! Haha... But, in the morning just before breakfast, it was snatched away from us... We all had to do a forfeit to get our flags back. Then the rest of the day was beach games, doing forfeits and getting dirty. We played in the sea too! Fun! We were painted, dunked with raw eggs and made to roll on the ground etc. Finally got to bath today. I had to race to the toliet to secure a cubicle for myself. And there was no curtain so it was like NS style. In the night, we had the "She-him" night where the guys would dress up as girls. 2 from each group had to do so. It was funny to see them in girl's clothing but apart from that, it was boring. Some seniors dressed up as girls too. They were in swim suits and tiger striped bikinis. Haha... At the end of all that, I starting to feel tired and exhausted.
3rd day ~ 8/3/04:
Thank god for the rain again! Haha... It was such a nice weather to sleep in but we only had about 4 hours of sleep. Tired! And our flag was not stolen. Haha... We actually tied it round the bed post. Morning was spent playing station games and noon was treasure hunting. Night was camp fire night and performance night. Each group had to do a performance. We sat around the camp fire and sang songs. After that was disco! Haha... Dancing the night away. Some people danced till 6 in the morning and slept only for an hour. Me, I slept at about 3am.
Exhausted...
4th day ~ 9/6/04:
We are going home! Yeah! I miss home... After cleaning up the bunks, we went to the jetty to wait for our ferry and we sang songs while waiting. Then it rained the view was spectacular. From the jetty, we could see marina south and all the tall buildings etc. When the rain came, everything disappeared. Haha... So cool. Once we've reached the main island we went back to school to be debriefed and to view the MM (Manufacturing & Mechanical) club house. Rather small but otherwise, cosy and cool. Then it was photo shots and one last cheer before we waved goodbye. Exhilarating & tired.
Life goes on...
Saturday, June 05, 2004
Went to play basketball from 9 to 6 today. Morning was at Kahtib and then I went to a secondary school to play. Ended up playing against their school team. Haha... I have a blister and their are sun tan marks all over my body. My arms, legs and face are red. And I still have camp tomorrow. I think I am going to die there. They can send me back in a wooden box. Haha... Almost couldn't complete my routine push ups. I'm very very very tired...
Life goes on...
Friday, June 04, 2004
Let's see... What to write? Went to play basketball in the morning and then went with dad to his office. Then had tea and dinner within 1 hour of each other. My tea was english pie with salad and fries. My sister does not like vegetable so... I get to eat her's! Haha... Then an hour later, it was off to Jurong Country Club for japanese dinner. Food is the answer to a happier life! Haha... Eat ur way to a happier life! Now its 35 push-ups at one go... 50! 50! That magic number. Haha...
Life goes on...
What a tiring day. Now listening to "If you're not the one" on Perfect10, it brings back memories long forgetten. How I left my lesson mid way when I heard she was crying. How she looked at me with those red tearful eyes... Its so painful... so painful... I constantly ask myself & God why did it have to end like this? How did something so sweet end so bitterly...?
Life goes on...
Life goes on...
Thursday, June 03, 2004
*sighs* Vesak day is over so fast. Didn't get to play basketball with my friends today. Really disappointed... Went to the temple to pray in the morning and in the afternoon, I went to buy my new basketball shoe. Man.. It was a LONG story -I went to FOUR World of Sports just to find my size! Wanted the AND1 shoe and ended with a Converse one because, the AND1 shoe does not have my size... *sighs*. No matter, the Converse one looks good too! Haha... Althought the Converse one cost $20 more ($99.90). Hey FangMun, thanks for following me the whole day. Haha... Camp coming! This Sunday... Can't wait!!
Life goes on...
Wednesday, June 02, 2004
Just had KFC & Pizza Hut for supper. I paid! Haha... Got a Mont Blanc wallet from my dad today and spend $60 on two shorts today. Well... That's about it for today.
Life goes on...