Wednesday, May 28, 2008
During the day, I am empowered. I can control my thoughts, deny my feelings and restraint my emotions. I can lie...
Yet when darkness falls, it sets in motion the wheels of truth. There's no way of stopping it. Just like there's no way from stopping the darkness that descends at nightfall. As sleep comes, so do dreams or in this case, perhaps I'd call it a nightmare.
Dreams often reveal to us what we really want deep inside. No matter how much we try to deny it in the day, the truth often surfaces in our dreams. And the worst part is, there's no stopping it. You can't control it, you can't deny it and you can't restraint it.
So here I am, trying to get over my past. Trying my best not to think about it, trying to move on. Yet why did that dream appear otherwise?
It truly was a setback.
In concurred my worst fears, it revealed the truth that I so desperately tried to deny. That I'm still trapped in my past, that I'm still longing for her.
I'm no longer reading her blog, no longer answering her messages, no longer physically bothering about her. Yet inside, there's this urge... Its something that I've been trying so hard to eradicate.
And last night, it morphed into a nightmare. One which slapped me with the cold hard fact.
I'm still not over the whole damn thing.
Life goes on...
Monday, May 19, 2008
The blogger is currently not feeling too well. Most possibly due to the fact that the much anticipated long weekend is finally coming to an end. Coupled with the fact that he is having a real bad bloated stomach at this point in time, it is therefore safe to assume that he isn't really in a very good mood.
He most certainly doesn't look forward to work tomorrow despite the fact that he will be driving. Could be that he is worried about the drive as it would be the first time he is driving to work, alone.
Then again, a good night's rest should do the trick.
Life goes on...
Thursday, May 15, 2008
My base...
- does not have any cell phone reception. (if any, its barely there.)
- is so huge, the cook house is too far to get there by foot.
- sends us our soggy lunches in boxes.
- is so huge (again) that to get to my squad from the main gate, I have to walk about 1 km.
- is so ulu that it takes me 1.5 hours by public transport and at least an hour by car.
- is one of the oldest bases in Singapore.
Life goes on...
Wednesday, May 14, 2008
Got my posting results and I'm so not liking it. I've been posted to some who-knows-where base and driving there is not going to be easy too. I think I'll most probably request to stay-in. Zzz...
Life goes on...
Monday, May 12, 2008
Hi guys, how was your weekends? For those who tried to contact me via MSN, my apologies cause I was either gaming or away.
I just got myself a new game last friday and have been immersing myself into it. I know its not healthy but I'd rather be engrossed in something than to have a mind that's running in circles - entertaining thoughts.
Did meet up with my secondary school pals for dinner on Saturday and a few movies at my place thereafter.
I guess my weekend can be considered an awesome one when comparing it to the previous few.
Life goes on...
Friday, May 09, 2008
Today's the day that the braces were removed.
Tomorrow's the day that the party begins.
Anyone drinking around town, holla at me yea?
Sorry guys for not replying the tags, I'll do so as soon as possible. :)
Life goes on...
Saturday, May 03, 2008
Seriously, I either need to,
(1) Expand my social circle
or
(2) Take up a course learn something new
If boredom could kill I'd be dead a hundred times over.
Life goes on...
Friday, May 02, 2008
Does it even matter if I'm confined or not? I mean even if I'm out, there's nothing for me to do. Everyone's busy with their stuff and there is literally NO one available at all. Damn... Not that I'm blaming you guys but it just sucks to be in my position now.
This is so damn screwed up. I may just start drinking again. At least its more fun then being stuck at home.
Life goes on...