Wednesday, March 22, 2006
For the past few weeks, its been the same thing everytime my phone rings. I fear that when I pick up,it might be someone telling me something that has happened to my mom. I don't know why... But I guess its probably because of that dream.
ITP or attachment has been very good in terms of experience and exposure. But other than that, it is terrible. The stress is almost like that of school exams. Everyone expects so much from me. *sighs*
With my new hairstyle, I believe, I've become uglier. And yes, Uglier. Less problems that way you know? BUT.. BUT.. Why is it that the female workers at my ITP are always asking my male colleagues for my damn handphone no and my background. Are they blind?! I'm an ugly freak!
Life goes on...
Sunday, March 12, 2006
What do dreams really mean? Are they just random thoughts or are they something much more?
I had a dream... One which I think should be called a nightmare. If anything, this nightmare is the worst one I've ever had in the past 19 years of existance.
I dreamt that my mom passed away... I can't really remember what was in a the dream. I do know that it was a mad rush. Everyone was either crying or hustling around with the necessary arrangements. It was really scary.
I woke up in the middle of the night, crying... Really crying... I had to wipe my tears away and just before going back to sleep I found my pillow all wet with tears. I had actually cried the whole night through.
I went back to sleep and the same dream continued.
I don't know what of make of this... Feeling so vexed. *sighs*
Life goes on...
Tuesday, March 07, 2006
Well, am currenly into my 2nd day of my ITP. Could say I'm doing better than the rest - from what I hear. It seems the things they do have no relevance to the course. Mine on the other hand is related to a certain extend. Hands on is a must here. And so is initative. Otherwise, you'd be rotting your hours away on a chair.
She called me two days in a roll now. Whining and complaining about her ITP. Like hell anyone here is satisfied with their's. What can I say? No birthday wish, no contact since the day 'us' ended. Until yesterday when she came looking for me. Why? Because she needed my help.
"I want to be there for you. As a friend like before."
Those are the words she said after the breakup...
I have nothing else to say... I'm lost for words...
Life goes on...
Sunday, March 05, 2006
Just what the hell in the world is wrong with my life?!
Just when I am almost getting over a hurdle, another comes along.
My parents quarrelled and my mom was pretty pissed, she went out the whole day without tell us where she went. My dad went around looking for her and finally found her at their usual dance studio.
This afternoon my mom almost broke down... I knocked on her door pretty loudly. But she didn't hear and when I opened the door and asked her something, she got shocked and was tearing. I was like, "WTF?". I didn't say that but damn... What's happening... *sighs*
First love, next friends, now family...
What's next?
Life goes on...
Saturday, March 04, 2006
Thank you guys for wishing me Happy Birthday and all... Thank you so much... :)
Sadly, someone simply either didn't have the guts to wish me or simply forgot about it... Oh well...
Went to school today and everyone was extending their hands and wishing me happy birthday. Haha... Thanks guys...
Had a paper today in the morning. I think I did pretty ok for it. So yea...
Went to Queensway with my classmates and Jav, thanks for getting me that gift. Haha... I bought a new pair of basketball shoes, KG3. I love it! But it hurts, $153.
After that took a bus down to meet Glenda at PS. She bought me a cake and we celebrated at Burger King. Haha...
We went to Cafe Iguna at Clarke Key for dinner. The food and drinks there are great man! The mexican food is absolutely fantastic and the tequilla is great too! I tried the tequilla shot and a tequilla mix. The mix is blend of ice blend and lime juice with tequilla. Should go back there more often. Haha...
Glenda's boy got me a bottle of wine... Thanks dude... Ya rock! Haha...
After dinner we stolled along Clarke Key and walked down to Raffles City and ended up at Starbucks drinking coffee till about 10+ before we headed off.
I really enjoyed myself today... If only everyday can be a birthday... HAHA!
Life goes on...
Wednesday, March 01, 2006
Hmmm... I think I screwed up my paper today.
Just before entering the exam hall, I realised, I lost the car keys... I freaked out. Spent the first 10 mins of my paper searching for the keys and still, I couldn't find it. *sighs* Rushed through the paper after that and well rushed off to look for my keys.
I think I pretty well screwed up that paper.
Why is life so unfair... My friends leave, some don't just leave, one even left with the person I love most. Now my grades... Like "What the Fuck" is wrong with my life...?
Is it really so hard to be happy and stay that way?
Why must something always come along and screw everything up?
Life goes on...