Saturday, March 31, 2007
I am the rage that eats your mind, till nothing good is left behind......
I am the pain that blinds your eyes, pounds your head, and makes you lie......
I am the doubt that lingers there, did anybody ever care?
The voice that keeps you up at night, the adrenaline you know you like......
The urge to crush somebody's life, the little thrill that makes you psyched,
The churning, swirling, in your guts that make you wish you could throw up
The drum that's banging in your heart, feel how invincible you are
I am the one they cannot beat, with me you'll never know defeat
When hypocrites and zealots rant; I pull the strings that make them dance.......
I am what you call HATE.
Life goes on...
and i love it.
Monday, March 26, 2007
Saturday, March 24, 2007
I'm finally starting to understand why some people are simply so addicted to the night life. Because I am. Haha... Went out for supper again and just got home. Its like the moment your out, you just don't wanna come home any time soon. The best part is, driving at this time of the night is just awesome. There's absolutely no use for the brakes. Haha...
Oh and the new car came in today. As much as I didn't like to see the old one go, I must say this new Honda is pretty impressive. Wait till you guys ride in it.
So people, anytime you want supper and you want company, you know who to look for. Haha... :p
Life goes on...
Friday, March 23, 2007
The state of my mind is in a damn mess right now. Been running a fever for the past 3 days, fighting the headaches with panadol and enduring sleepless nights. And thanks to all that, I get stuck at home for 3 whole days.
Worst of all, there's no one at home. No one online. No one to talk to. Then you start entertaining weird thoughts in your head and you start to question your sanity.
Did see a doc on monday thou. I asked him about why is it that I have problems sleeping at night. He said and I qoute, "Probably due to a lack of motivation in life or perhaps your suffering from anxiety. Or do you have a problem that's been bothering you? If you do, you have to identify it and solve the problem."
Hell, I have a problem. I know the problem. But I just want to avoid the damn issue. Coward? Maybe. But if you know what it's about, then perhaps you'll understand why.
Anyways, only until today did the fever subside and I stepped out of my front gate for the first time since eons ago. It felt so unreal. Haha... But I guess that didnt really made up for the 3 days of being stuck at home. So I went out again and just got back home. Feeling so much better now. At least the drive was fun, there was barely any traffic.
Guess it's gonna be another sleepless night again.
Reading through what I've just typed. I realised, it all doesnt make any sense. Haha... Whatever lahz... Gonna start adopting the heck care attitude. Make my life less stressful.
Life goes on...
Friday, March 16, 2007
Why are you doing this to me?! What have I done to deserve this?! God, what have I done wrong?! TELL ME!!!
Life goes on...
Thursday, March 15, 2007
Sighs... Guys if your reading this, pray for my granny and my girl will ya?
Brought my grandmother to see a doctor today about the numerous ulcers in her mouth and it seems the situation is worst than what we thought. The doctor had to refer my grandmother to Gleneagles for further examination before we know what's the actual cause. And according to the doctor's personal opinion it doesn't look good for my grandmother.
My girl broke camp earlier due to her back problem. Baby, if your reading this, I just want you to know something. Do you know that lately, whenever we do go out, you always seem so tired. I know you try very hard not to show but its pretty obvious. I don't blame you if you want to work a little more before your school term commences but your health is even more important. It really hurts me to see you this way. Maybe to you I'm over reacting, but I just want you to know that i care. I really miss the old bubbly and hyper you...
Will you promise me to start taking better care of yourself?
Life goes on...
Wednesday, March 14, 2007
| STUDENT ID | 0430180 | ||
| COURSE | DIPLOMA IN MECHANICAL ENGINEERING | STAGE | 3B |
| MODULE CODE | MODULE | CREDIT UNITS | GRADE | ||
| MM305Z | PROJECT | 6 | A | ||
| MM3826 | ORGANISATIONAL MANAGEMENT | 3 | A | ||
| LC0514 | COMMUNICATION SKILLS FOR WORK | 2 | DIST | ||
| MM3105 | MECHANICS III | 4 | DIST | ||
| MM3405 | ENGINEERING THERMODYNAMICS | 4 | DIST | ||
| MM3505 | FLUID MECHANICS | 4 | DIST | ||
| ET0167 | MICRODEVICES AND MATERIALS | 4 | DIST |
| Semester GPA: | 4 |
| Cumulative GPA: | 3.91 |
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DIPLOMA AWARDEDNATIONAL FITNESS AWARD (NAPFA) TEST - SILVER
CO-CURRICULAR ACTIVITIES (CCA) - B (1 BONUS PT)
Finally, my last and final aim achieved. I graduate with no regrets. :)
Life goes on...
Saturday, March 10, 2007
In case you guys are wondering how come I've seem to have disappeared. That's because I went for a 3 days camp as a camp instructor trainee. I can tell you, its so much fun even though it was damn tiring. I've never had so much fun with kids before.
The thing I've come to realised is that the instructors are instructors because they love the passion and satisfaction it brings to them. The pay is horrible if you think about the stuff you have to do and the hours you have to clock but its that emotion, that feeling that keeps them coming back to work as instructors. And I must say, the instructors are a damn friendly bunch of people, it took em less than half a day to warm up with each other.
The sad part of this job is to see the kids go. I almost cried waving my kids good bye outside the camp site. Haha...
And I got nicknamed, "Instructor Nanny" by my fellow instructors. I think the name is enough to explain why.
Well, hopefully I get called up for the next camp soon enough cause honestly, I'm really liking this job.
Life goes on...
Saturday, March 03, 2007
My birthday wish this year is to spend the rest of my birthdays with my one and only love...
And to all my friends out there, thanks for the well wishes. You know I love you too. :)
Life goes on...