Sunday, October 28, 2007
Glenda says Alvin is single and he wishes to be. But is he?
Life goes on...
I shouldn't have done that U turn. It was a big mistake.
Wednesday, October 24, 2007
Got chased out of my grandmother's house in the morning.
Screwed up big time in the office by asking a customer to send their goods to my office when we were unable to ship them up to Malaysia. Had to get them to come back again to collect their goods.
Went for my last Muay Thai class and conveniently, injuried my knee during the class. Ended up leaving early with a swollen knee.
Went to her house to pass her a stuff she asked me to help her get. Wasn't at home, so fine, left it with her mom. No thanks, no nothing.
Came home to try out my new PS 2 game. Can't play for more than 5 minutes without it hanging.
Truly an amazing and totally fucked up day.
Life goes on...
Fuck. Why am I still trying.
Wednesday, October 17, 2007
Well, I'm finally at my KL office. Its nothing much and the coms really suck.
They're still running on 56k modems. Sighs*
Hope to see you guys soon or until I get my arse into an internet cafe.
Life goes on...
Somewhere along the way, I must done a U-turn...
Tuesday, October 09, 2007
My grandmother doesn't recognize me anymore.
Life goes on...
Tuesday, October 02, 2007
What happened last night essentially killed what little feelings I had left for you. I was naive, I thought I'd give it a shot and see if I might be able to turn things around. But I guess not.
As much as it hurts, it was also pretty much a great relieve. Like a post that I remembered you had on your blog back then, you said, "watching the plane take off, i felt both gratitude and relieve" or something along those lines.
The most painful wake up call is also the most effective.
Well, I guess I finally know how you felt.
Life goes on...
Can’t find the reason to keep holding on.. Now that the love is gone..
Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.
Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.
You took a hammer to these walls,
Dragged the memories down the hall,
Packed your bags and walked away.
There was nothing I could say.
And when you slammed the front door shut,
A lot of others opened up,
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me.
Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.
Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.
You took a hammer to these walls,
Dragged the memories down the hall,
Packed your bags and walked away.
There was nothing I could say.
And when you slammed the front door shut,
A lot of others opened up,
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me.
Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.
Life goes on...
Monday, October 01, 2007
With every visit I pay to my grandmother, she just seems to get worst and worst. I suppose its the inevitable. But its hard to accept that the person lying there in bed is the grandmother that I used to know. Reduced to skin and bones, her mental capacity is also no more than a 5 year old's. And then you wonder how much longer does she have to endure these, how much longer do we as family have to go on enduring. Its not easy.
With every visit, my heart grows heavier and my tears just flow.
Life goes on...
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through, I got over you.