Went out last night for dinner at Marinay Bay with my Poly class mates. The food was not too bad... The dinner however, was fantastic. Lots of fun, lots of jokes... The only sad thing was time had to fly by so fast and soon before we even knew it, it was time to go. Pity...
Incident of the Month:
While on my way to the canteen during a class break;
Alvin: Hi mdm!
Mdm: Alvin! Where's your girlfriend?
Alvin: *smiles*
Mdm: I saw you two together the other time...
Alvin: *walks away*
She had to bring it all up....
Life goes on...
Mom's sick again... Undergoing her bouts of depression and sleepless nights - she didn't go to work today. Its been an on off kind of thing since the past few years. Sometimes it takes her a day, sometimes a few weeks to get back up again. I suppose its all in the name of feeding the family.
And because of all that, I don't my parents alot of things. I suppose less things to worry would help ease the suitation. If there is anything lacking between son and parents, it'd be communication. Never really was the sort who'd talk to my mom about my problems.
The only time that happen was when I just broke down in front of her and cried. Shall not go on with that...
Probably that's why I so wish to have someone who would be able to listen to me, to hear me out to be there for me. Not that I am weak. But sometimes, its just feels good to know that you have someone by your side.
Friends I can't say I'm truly happy neither can I say I'm utterly dissappointed. Perhaps is because of the distrust I have in people...
Lonely... I am so lonely...
Life goes on...
So many things going through my head...
Yet at the same time, it feels like there is nothing.
Ever felt like this?
*sighs*
Kinda screwed up feeling.
One word to sum it up?
Lost?
Am I am even making any sense?
Life goes on...
This idea of "What I want my future to be" has been on my mind these past few weeks.
I guess at some point in time we will ask ourselves, what do we see in the future and more importantly, what do we want.
I know what I want. But there is where the problem lies.
I want a condo right smack in Orchard Road, no less.
I want to drive a Merc, no less.
Just these 2 and I think I'm going to have trouble trying to get there.
What do you want?
Life goes on...
Lonely im Mr. Lonely,
I have nobody,
For my owwnnn
Im so Lonely, im Mr. Lonely
I have nobody,
for my owwnnn
Im so Lonely,
.
Yo, this one here goes out to all my players out there man.
ya kno that got that one good girl dog thats always been
there man like took all the bullshit then one day she cant
take it no more and decides to leave
.
yeah, I woke up in the middle of the night,
And I noticed my girl wasn't by my side,
Coulda sworn I was dreamin,
For her I was feinin,
So I had ta take a little ride,
Back tracking on these few years,
Tryna figure out wat I do to make it go bad,
Cuz ever since my girl left me,
My whole life came crashin and I'm so....
.
Lonely (so lonely),
Im Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
For my own (to call my own girl).
.
Im so lonely (so lonely)
Im Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
For my own (to call my own girl).
I'm so lonely
.
Cant belive I had a girl like you,
and I just let you walk right outta my life,
after all I put u thru
u still stuck around and stayed by my side (by my side)
what really hurt me is I broke ur heart,
baby you a good girl and I had no right,
I really wanna make things right,
cuz without u in my life girl
im so..
.
Lonely (so lonely)
Im Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
For my own (to call my own girl).
.
Im so lonely (so lonely)
Im mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
For my own (to call my own baby).
Im so lonely
.
Been all about the world ain't,
neva met a girl that can take the things that you been through.
Never thought the day would come,
where you would get up and run,
and I would be out chasing u
Cuz aint nowhere in the globe id rather be,
aint no one in the globe id rather see
then the girl of my dreams that made me
Be so happy but now so lonely
.
Lonely (so lonely)
Im Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
For my own (to call my own, no).
.
Im so lonely (so lonely)
Im Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
For my own (to call my own girl).
I'm so Lonely
.
Never thought that id be alone (be alone)
I didnt hope you'd be gone this long (gone this long)
I jus want u to call my phone,
so stop playing girl and Come on home (come on home),
baby girl I didn't mean to shout, (no)
I want me and you to work it out, (work it out baby)
I never wished that Id ever Hurt my baby,
and its drivin me crazy cuz I'm so...
.
Lonely (so lonely)
Im Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody, nobody)
To call my own (to call my own, no).
.
Im so lonely (so lonely)
Im Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
For my own (to call my own girl)
.
I'm so Lonely
So lonely(lonely)
So lonely (so lonely)
Mr. Lonely(lonely)
So lonely (so lonely)
So lonely (Lonely)
So lonely!!! (so lonely!!!)
So Lonely
Mr. Lonely
Had my first personal training session at the club today and reality finally struck... I'm just that weak... Strange that under his programme I seem to be struggling so badly. Perhaps that's why he is called a trainer. Did 3 sets, with each set comprising of 15 reps of bench press and 15 pushs ups. By the time I came to the push ups of the 3rd set, I could barely even support my body and disgracefully collasped onto the floor...
Utter humiliation and embarressment.
BUT! Its not going to stop me... I will get that damn figure that I want... Moreover, I told him to focus on a higher vertical lift for my legs training. So that I can dunk better! Wahahahah...
Come to think of it, I may have to stop basketball for the time being. My body fat % is too low and I dislocated my arm again yesterday. Damn...
Life goes on...
6.00 am: Breakfast - 2 pieces of wholemeal bread with chicken, 2 half boiled eggs and a cup of tea
8.30 am: Light meal - 1 cup of soy bean
11.00 am: Lunch - Pasta with chicken and a cup of papaya milk shake
2.00pm: Tea - Weight Gainer
4.00pm: Light meal - 1 snack bar
7.30pm: Dinner
10.00pm: Supper - Fruits
And of course from 6.30 to 7.30, I was working out...
I need to put on weight!!! Haha...
Current day dream: Day time model, Night time bouncer. LOL
Life goes on...
A week's gone by and time really does fly... That might actually be an understatement. Haha...
Was watching the celebrations of those before me in Poly graduating and it really makes me wonder how it would be like for me. Would I be right at the top or would I fall to mediocracy? I fear the latter...
Lots of projects to hand up. Going to school if anything feels like having loan sharks come after you for money just that, its your lecturers hounding you for those darn projects.
It also dosen't help that you team mates refuse to start without always giving the same old excuse of "We don't know". So that means without me, this team is nothing? I'm actually a Kingpin?!
I don't know to laugh or to cry...
I pray for shoulders, shoulders wide enough to carry all the projects on my own.
Life goes on...