Friday, July 30, 2004
Before I write out my thoughts, this entry goes out to my dear sister Glenda, HAPPY BIRHTDAY!!! Haha... Played basketball from 12pm to 5.30pm. Very tired... Then during workshop practical, cut my right thumb because I went to help my friend to remove a stuck tool. On my finger's like... Oh well... Thank god it did not affect my performance on the basketball court. I sound like basketball more important than my life. Haha... Then I was really very upset when Glenda told me that a friend actually back stabbed her on her birthday... Hey, its your birthday today! Don't let it get to you. Tomorrow we go have fun! Forget about it ya? You still have your brother here, standing by you! Love~~
Life goes on...
Thursday, July 29, 2004
Come to think of it, since I've first saw her, I've not been able to take my mind of her. She is so far away... So very far away... Oh well, no matter what, I'll try my best to win her heart! Its Friday tomorrow already, time really flies... Oh, people, I want to say a big SORRY to you guys out there who talk to me on msn. My new computer is really screw up and I keep losing the wireless connection and I don't know what's the bloody problem. So sorry... And it only looses the connection before 11 pm. After 11pm, it does not... What the hell... I can't wait for tomorrow to come, its BASKETBALL time! Haha...
Life goes on...
Tuesday, July 27, 2004
Oh my god, can you believe it? Shawn, Javier and me were like, "Its been a long time since you saw her.". And guess what? Today at the canteen, I saw her! Wohoo!!! She seems to be prettier day by day. Haha... I think I'm just crazy... Very disappointing performance on the court today. During my training, I was scoring, no doubt but when it came to playing 4 on 4, I just sort of like lost it all? *sighs*And frankly speaking, they weren't very good players. Maybe I'm just too tired, having been pushing myself too hard I guess... Let's see if I can perform better tomorrow. My body is aching like mad... *ouch*
Life goes on...
Sunday, July 25, 2004
I'm so happy, feeling so great! I just completed TimeCrisis II on my own with 3 dollars! Haha... I am 6th on the ranking. The small kids were like, "Whao... His good!". Haha... Went to the gym today to work out and really saw the curves. Hehe... But at the basketball court, something was not quite right. I am not scoring. Don't know why... Can't stop thinking of her... She keeps appearing in my mind.
Life goes on...
Tuesday, July 20, 2004
Oh man... I melted... Really melted. Saw her today near the basketball court and I actually spoke to her! Haha... At least like what my friend said, "You have the balls to go up to her." Haha... Said "Hi" and asked "How come you're not going home?". Ok, it may only be 2 sentences but, its a start. At least I'm trying! Haha... Oh god... I'll do anything to win her heart...
Life goes on...
Sunday, July 18, 2004
Everytime I think of it, I feel like crying... My jie just left for Australia and although its only been what 1 day? Its starting to feel like a year... *sighs* I can't wait for December when you return. Jie, if you are reading this, I miss you! Damn, I'm only your di and I'm like that, I can't imagine how Jeremy's feeling now. Can you believe it? Its only the second week of school and I have C++ prog test! Stupid polytechnic... School is so boring. I'm like doing physics and D&T all over again. They should exempt those who did those subjects from doing the module because it is a waste of time. Haiz...
Life goes on...
Friday, July 16, 2004
What can I say? Today went back to school for only 2 hours of lesson. Then went down to Orchard to meet my jie who will be leaving for Perth tomorrow. There, I saw lesbians and transexuals. This is just not my day! Haha... The lesbians were sitting beside me and they were sitting on each other's laps and kissing and hugging one another. Oh my god... Then went shopping with my jie and her female friend. I had a fun time 'suan-ing' her. Haha... Shop half way we saw a transexual and I'm like, "Shit! First les.. Now this..". Haha... I really enjoyed myself today. Great sister, great food & great coffee (starbucks)! I feel very bad to have to rush off like that. Sorry... Haiz... Jie, I'm going to miss you! Today's bloggy entry is dedicated to you! All the best there ya? Don't forget me!!! I'll miss you!
Life goes on...
Wednesday, July 14, 2004
I seem to get tired more and more easily... Must be the daily basketball that's wearing me out. I just can't seem to get enough of it. Haha... At the basketball trial, none of my bros got in. I don't think I would have gotten in if I went for it. And there is this gal that keeps staring at me! What the... And when approached by my friend, she denies it... Hai... Its really freaky man. She says its because I'm tall that's why she looks at me for 'awile'. Don't know what to do... Hopefully she stops it.
Life goes on...
Tuesday, July 13, 2004
Have not post for quite sometime... Have been very tired and busy lately. Coming down with a cold and feeling very weak. It must be because I've been dashing between the hot basketball court & the air-conditioned club room. Now I feel like shit... Can feel the headache coming... Argh!!! Hey you guys out there, thanks for being there for me k? I really appericate it! Thank you! I'm starting to accept reality.
Life goes on...
Saturday, July 10, 2004
Just spoke to my gan jie and I asked her if I've changed. And she said yes. She said I've become more depressed and darker... I'm focusing too much on the negative. She also said that when she first met me at the restaurant, I appeared to her as a carefree guy, easy going and not someone who would hold on very tightly to things not worth holding on to... I feel the change in me too... Espeacially after my first 3 months in SRJC but I didn't know it was so bad... Lord... Help...
Life goes on...
Friday, July 09, 2004
The MMEC main com? "I'm not good enough... There are better canditates." All my dreams... All my goals... All gone... All shattered... There seems to be nothing to go on for... What's there to look forward to in the future? My purpose in life? To be the fucking loser while everyone wins. Am I asking for too much? I'm willing to sacriface what I have for the club. I'm 100% into the club and now... Why is all happening at the same time? Before I can get up, I fall again... And everytime I fall, I fall deeper. The light at the end of the tunnel is dying out, fading out... My friend that I knew from sec sch wrote this to me on a postcard, "Yoz brudder~~you are definitely not yourself for the past few months after you broke off with steph. Didn't speak to you but instead writing to you lah, cause this issue abit sensitive and i paiseh to talk about it. trying to ask u to forget this matter(which you are having on). Your attitude when we met YX and his gf was very shocking to me lor. Just hope u forget this matter asap...."
Life goes on... (But it seems so hard when ur heavy burden)
Thursday, July 08, 2004
"We all begin out with good intent. When love is raw and young, we believe that we can change ourselves, the past can be undone. But we carry on our back the burdens time always reveals in the lonely light of morning, in the wound that would not heal. It's the bitter taste of losing everything I've held so dear."
Such sad words that mean so much...
Life goes on...
Wednesday, July 07, 2004
I'm so happy! So happy! Never felt better! I'm on cloud 9 now! Happy!
I WISH!!! What the hell... More like far from it...
Life goes on...
Tuesday, July 06, 2004
"You can have a great time if you go out with the one you love. You need to refrain from being the generous one in the group. You may find that relationships are not going as well as you'd like."
Life goes on...
Monday, July 05, 2004
Just what am I doing? Just what do I want? Why is it.. I never seem to know the answer? And it just pains me to see what is going on right before my eyes... What does all this mean? Am I to just sit there and see what I want to disappear or go after it? What if it just does not want to belong to me? What if I'm fated never to ever get it? I'm so tired... So exhausted... So worn out... Even if I get it... Will there be happiness? What should I do?
"I don't want to die and I'm not keen on living either..."
Life goes on... (but where to?)
Saturday, July 03, 2004
I'm so troubled now! I need help! Argh! So fan(2)...
Life goes on...
Friday, July 02, 2004
Ok... I guess I can't blog as often as I want to nowadays. School is starting on Monday and I'm tiring myself out on the basketball court. Haha... All I can say now is my form teacher rocks and I love my club! MM rocks! Hopfully I can become board member. Hehe...
Life goes on...