Wednesday, November 29, 2006
Went out with my dear today... Its like finally after soooooooooooo long I get to see her again. Am so elated!
I recommend everyone watch Happy Feet! Haha... Its a great show.
Life goes on...
I looked up at the stars & matched each one with a reason why I love you, I was doing great, but then I ran out of stars.
Tuesday, November 28, 2006
Its 11.30pm and I just got home from a run.
Was looking for someone to talk to yet, there wasn't anyone. Then again, its not that there wasn't anyone. It was that, no one comes even a mile close to what you mean to me. It just doesn't feel right.
Somehow things suddenly took a nosedive. And it all seems so weird. Feeling very vexed right now. Needed that run to let it all out.
Life goes on...
Monday, November 27, 2006
School just doesnt feel like school anymore. I get to school at 8am only to have the lesson start around 8.20 and end around 9.30. And if that's not all, my next lesson is at 1pm. Can't the school do a better job at time tabling? *sighs
Went searching for my angel this afternoon under the rain and kinda got drenched by the time I got home. Haha... I just hope things will be fine by tomorrow. :)
Life goes on...
Whenever my mind wonders, it always finds it way to you.
Sunday, November 26, 2006
I've been losing weight for 2 consecutive weeks. Lost a grand total of 1000 grams over that period. Feeling damn pissed. I've been working out 3 days every week and eating at least 4 meals a day. Yet I am still lossing weight!
The only reason I can think of right now is that its probably due to a lack of sleep.
Hopefully that isn't the case thou...
Btw, my mom described me as "Sexy" today when I wore a singlet after my gym. LOL
Life goes on...
My heart's been aching... I miss you.
Saturday, November 25, 2006
You are The Chariot
Triumph, Victory, Overcoming Obstacles.
The chariot is one of the most complex cards to define. On its most basic level, it implies war, a struggle, and an eventual, hard-won victory. Either over enemies, obstacles, nature, the beasts inside you, or to just get what you want. But there is a great deal more to it. The charioteer wears emblems of the sun, yet the sign behind this card is the moon. The chariot is all about motion, and yet it is often shown as stationary. It is a union of opposites, like the black and white steeds. They pull in different directions, but must be (and can be!) made to go together in one direction. Control is required over opposing emotions, wants, needs, people, circumstances; bring them together and give them a single direction, your direction. Confidence is also needed and, most especially, motivation. The card can, in fact, indicate new motivation or inspiration, which gets a stagnant situation moving again.
What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.
Barely slept at all the whole night. Turned in at 12, slept for small periods of time and woke up at 3 in the morning. Thereafter, it was the same thing all over again before I gave up trying to sleep.
And I just cant help thinking about it.
Life goes on...
And I just cant help thinking about it.
Life goes on...
Friday, November 24, 2006
The day turned out pretty much unexpectedly.
Was intending to head down to Expo for the Adidas warehouse sale but decided against it when my pals suggested basketball in school instead. The prospect of saving money suddenly seemed more important than new clothes.
But, as usual it has to rain so I ended up cancelling the game and headed to IMM instead with a classmate. Its totally crazy - at 12+ pm, the parking lots were snapped up faster than Singaporeans in a warehouse sale.
So we ate at Mac's. And I regretted there after - developed a real bad stomach ache. Then someone called. :) And it almost made the pain dissappear.
We chatted for a little before I headed out to get someone her birthday gift.
And then I had to drop my lazy-ass friend outside his house before I went over to her place. Lol.. (Sam, I'm just kidding yea?)
Life goes on...
i shldnt have asked... now i feel like an idiot.
So today was jugdgement day - literally.
My sister got her PSLE results and scored 182. Ok, so it isn't really anything fantastic about 182. But damn man, at least she did her very best! Moreover, she improved from 150 during prelims to 182 for PSLE.
So you guys ain't happy about it. Sure, understandable. As parents and family members, who wouldn't want to see their child score above 200?
But why the hell have you guys got to say things like,
"Why cant you be like your brother?"
"Why you make your mother so sad."
"See, all because of you, your mother is so depressed."
"Its all your fault."
And my mom with her ulitmate remark, "I just CANT accept it.".
That's so freaking immature and uncalled for. Yea, so I am top 5% in school. Does that mean you have to always use that to compare with her? It ain't fair man. And she did her best, my mom expected her to score around that range, what's this nonsense about making mom so sad etc.
I'm going to call my grandmother, my aunty who ever was involved and wake their fucking idea.
This family is a living joke.
Life goes on...
My sister got her PSLE results and scored 182. Ok, so it isn't really anything fantastic about 182. But damn man, at least she did her very best! Moreover, she improved from 150 during prelims to 182 for PSLE.
So you guys ain't happy about it. Sure, understandable. As parents and family members, who wouldn't want to see their child score above 200?
But why the hell have you guys got to say things like,
"Why cant you be like your brother?"
"Why you make your mother so sad."
"See, all because of you, your mother is so depressed."
"Its all your fault."
And my mom with her ulitmate remark, "I just CANT accept it.".
That's so freaking immature and uncalled for. Yea, so I am top 5% in school. Does that mean you have to always use that to compare with her? It ain't fair man. And she did her best, my mom expected her to score around that range, what's this nonsense about making mom so sad etc.
I'm going to call my grandmother, my aunty who ever was involved and wake their fucking idea.
This family is a living joke.
Life goes on...
Thursday, November 23, 2006
I've been very tired these few days... Sleep hasn't come easy. My mind chooses only to be wide awake at unholy hours. And even when I do finally fall asleep, my mind enters a frenzy of dreams. Multiple and continous dreams that seeminly have no link to each other and no end in sight.
So many thoughts running through my head with decisions pending and answers awaiting.
Life goes on...
yet my dreams seem to revolve around only you.
Monday, November 20, 2006
Visited both my grandmothers last Sunday. And man... You should how the old folks brighten up the moment they see their grand kids. Haha... It never fails to make my day. :)
The tests are finally over, in fact, I got back one of my tests today and I did pretty well so to speak. Haha... Am quite satisfied with it.
Now, I can fully concentrate and spend my time in the gym. Haha... I've not gained any weight in the last 2 - 3 weeks!
Something unexpected happened last night. Which put me on cloud 9. =)
Havent felt like this in a long long time...
Life goes on...
suddenly, the world seems so beautiful once again..
Saturday, November 18, 2006
Tonight was another night in which my Mom tried to get me to talk to her about my problems. Futile as her attempt was, it was nevertheless, the same as before.
She said she wanted to talk to me. But yet she never fails to make it feel like its some sort of an interview - always questions and answer. She question, I answer.
Honestly, I've lived for like 19 years without seeking her comfort or guidance in my problems. I don't see why I should now.
Firstly, I believe such talks should have been cultivated from young. If you fail at that point, you can probably expect your child to confide in you. Secondly, my Mom has more that enough problems. No point adding mine to her.
Thirdly, which is also the most fucked up reason is, she always thinks she's right.
We ended the conversation like this,
"Tell me your opinions. What you think. I may not be right."
"Hmmm.. Do you think your ever wrong in the first place?"
Then I walked off.
Life goes on...
Friday, November 17, 2006
The day started of fine but only to get worse. *sighs
Had my test today and I guess I shouldn't do too badly for it.
Met up with the pig later at night for dinner. Ate at Pastamania at J8 and headed off to the basketball court to chill and enjoy the breeze.
We then decided to take neo-prints and erm, yea.. she lost her stuff there.
Damn it.
How fucking idiotic can I get...
Life goes on...
Sunday, November 12, 2006
So its finally Sunday tomorrow. Or rather, it is already Sunday.
Am still waiting for a pig to reply my sms, but I guess she's fast asleep on her bed. Haha...
Watched Cast Away on Channel 5 and damn... Really reminded me of how I am taking life for granted. The simmple things... Hmmmm...
Life goes on...
Friday, November 10, 2006
FYP is coming close to an end. With the fabrication coming to an end and some minor touch ups, I think we could finally call it a day.
Brought the trolley down to the hospice to test it. Wasn't really smooth, so we are going to have to make some minor adjustments to it.
After that, headed down to Orchard to meet up with Jess and her pals. Had dinner at Sake Sushi. Didn't really like it. I think the food was really very badly prepared. Probably its due to the rush hour. Hmmm...
And we took neo prints after that.
Yes, believe it. Alvin took neo print. (He's second time since pri. 6) Lol
Life goes on...
Today's presentation was really a mad rush. Literally..
"Good morning sir, I'd like to introduce..."
"Skip"
"Ok, as you can see, the objectives..."
"Skip"
"Right. Moving on to the scope..."
"Skip"
You get my point. The presentation was only like 3 mins.
Right, dinner sucked. So I was looking forward to supper with the PIG! Haha... Ordered a chicken mutabak which was too big for me to finish. So I had to take away the rest. She ordered plain n egg prata. The bare minimal if you ask me.
Over slept in the evening and here I am paying the price for it. Still so wide awake. Damn it.
Life goes on...
"Good morning sir, I'd like to introduce..."
"Skip"
"Ok, as you can see, the objectives..."
"Skip"
"Right. Moving on to the scope..."
"Skip"
You get my point. The presentation was only like 3 mins.
Right, dinner sucked. So I was looking forward to supper with the PIG! Haha... Ordered a chicken mutabak which was too big for me to finish. So I had to take away the rest. She ordered plain n egg prata. The bare minimal if you ask me.
Over slept in the evening and here I am paying the price for it. Still so wide awake. Damn it.
Life goes on...
Monday, November 06, 2006
INFJ
The Counselor Idealists are abstract in thought and speech, cooperative in reaching their goals, and directive and introverted in their interpersonal roles. Counselors focus on human potentials, think in terms of ethical values, and come easily to decisions. The small number of this type (little more than 2 percent) is regrettable, since Counselors have an unusually strong desire to contribute to the welfare of others and genuinely enjoy helping their companions. Although Counsleors tend to be private, sensitive people, and are not generally visible leaders, they nevertheless work quite intensely with those close to them, quietly exerting their influence behind the scenes with their families, friends, and colleagues. This type has great depth of personality; they are themselves complicated, and can understand and deal with complex issues and people.
Counselors can be hard to get to know. They have an unusually rich inner life, but they are reserved and tend not to share their reactions except with those they trust. With their loved ones, certainly, Counselors are not reluctant to express their feelings, their face lighting up with the positive emotions, but darkening like a thunderhead with the negative. Indeed, because of their strong ability to take into themselves the feelings of others, Counselors can be hurt rather easily by those around them, which, perhaps, is one reason why they tend to be private people, mutely withdrawing from human contact. At the same time, friends who have known a Counselor for years may find sides emerging which come as a surprise. Not that they are inconsistent; Counselors value their integrity a great deal, but they have intricately woven, mysterious personalities which sometimes puzzle even them.
Counselors have strong empathic abilities and can become aware of another's emotions or intentions -- good or evil -- even before that person is conscious of them. This "mind-reading" can take the form of feeling the hidden distress or illnesses of others to an extent which is difficult for other types to comprehend. Even Counselors can seldom tell how they came to penetrate others' feelings so keenly. Furthermore, the Counselor is most likely of all the types to demonstrate an ability to understand psychic phenomena and to have visions of human events, past, present, or future. What is known as ESP may well be exceptional intuitive ability-in both its forms, projection and introjection. Such supernormal intuition is found frequently in the Counselor, and can extend to people, things, and often events, taking the form of visions, episodes of foreknowledge, premonitions, auditory and visual images of things to come, as well as uncanny communications with certain individuals at a distance.
Mohandas Gandhi and Eleanor Roosevelt are examples of the Counselor Idealist (INFJ).
Life goes on...
Saturday, November 04, 2006
I played ball today! Haha...
Did a few dunks before the game. My friends were kind of impressed at my improvements. But sadly, I missed my dunks in the games. Hahaha...
No worries. There is always next saturday!
Dunking is more than just putting the ball through the rim. Its a statement.
Life goes on...
The Test - http://www.humanmetrics.com/cgi-win/JTypes2.asp
The result - http://www.humanmetrics.com/cgi-win/JTypes3.asp
The result - http://www.humanmetrics.com/cgi-win/JTypes3.asp
Friday was like any other friday except that I had lunch with Jess in the afternoon. I enjoyed myself pretty much. Haha... Drove down to IMM for lunch before dropping her off at Lakeside MRT at her insistance. :p
The rain was terrible. Could barely see anything while driving home. Not to mention the road wad pretty flooded. Some crazy weather...
And the moment I reached home, I headed straight into bed. Was pretty feeling tired and worn out the whole day. So the nap was really a must.
Tomorrow's going to be the first game since the haze developed weeks ago and hopefully, I can put on a show like I did on Thursday.
Its air time, baby!
Life goes on...
The rain was terrible. Could barely see anything while driving home. Not to mention the road wad pretty flooded. Some crazy weather...
And the moment I reached home, I headed straight into bed. Was pretty feeling tired and worn out the whole day. So the nap was really a must.
Tomorrow's going to be the first game since the haze developed weeks ago and hopefully, I can put on a show like I did on Thursday.
Its air time, baby!
Life goes on...
Thursday, November 02, 2006
Right, before I begin writing down my list of mundane events that occurred within the past few hours, I'd like to clarrify something.
Mr J here, has ruined my good BOY image!!! Jeff, how could you?!
Haha... Well, I met up with him and a few SRJC friends for gaming and lunch. So I kind of got too carried away in a game when my cell phone rang. So you know... Talking on the phone and trying to stay alive. So yea... The words just came tumbling out. No sweat, the other person over the line is my gay partner. Wahahaha...
And to the lady who was staring at me cursing over the phone, I'm Sorry. :p
So on to today's events. I just got home! Headed out to Jalan Kayu for prata with TH. Felt quite drained after rushing tutorials and all. So I figured some fresh air and food would do good. And good it was.
They say God opens a window for every door that closes. Are you my window? Coz right now, you seem to be the one lighting my path.
Life goes on...