Tuesday, July 26, 2005
Just got back from my class chalet. Althought the chalet was kind of small and pathetic. We all had fun. Especially me. 24th of July will be a very special day. Haha... I'm not going to blog wad we did. I dont think anyone would bother to read it all anyways. So that being said. Time for me to go.
Life goes on...
Thursday, July 21, 2005
I am so fucked up. I screwed up my test again. For the 3rd consecative time. Did I even spell that correctly? Fuck... Why is it that I keep panicking? Why is it that I keep making careless mistakes. Why is it that everything is going so wrong?
I thought basketball would make me feel better. But it made everything worst. I got thrashed. I couldn't even last 30 mins on the court without panting like a dog.
Driving is supposedly something I look forward to every week. But after Wednesday. I dread it. I screwed it up as well. I got fucked.
What is wrong with me... I suddenly find myself without any self-confidence... I find that I really do have nothing to be proud of. Nothing to be happy about. I feel so fucked up right now... I want to shout!!! I want to let it all out!!!
Life goes on...
Sunday, July 17, 2005
Many things have happened since I last blogged. I don't know where to start... Maybe what ever that comes to my mind first I guess.
The most recent event would be meeting Glenda. Her birthday is just round the corner. I can still recall, wishing her a Happy Birthday right here almost a year ago. We just met 2 days ago. Had lunch at the food fair located at Takashimaya's basement. After which we shopped around and headed to Cineleisure. I bought a couple ring for her as her birthday gift. Which reminds me, I still have yet to get anything for my own sister whose birthday happens to be coming soon.
On Thursday, I got back my math paper. I was utter disappointed. I tried not to show it and I think no one knew. But I was and still am very disappointed. 19/20 was what I got. The 1 mark was lost due to my careless-ness. I have no one to blame but myself... I didn't know how to tell my parents. I felt so ashamed of myself. On Saturday, I finally revealed my marks. And I got the response that I was expecting. Which really makes me afraid of getting back my PC CAD/CAM test paper. I'm pretty sure I won't be getting anywhere near 90%... Let alone 100...
Lately, I realised that the people around me seem to be so happy. Smiles always on their faces, they show no worries... But I feel so different from them. I feel so isolated. I can't seem to be part of their happiness. I can't feel their happiness... Why... My parents, my friends they all seem so happy. Yet no matter how hard I try, I can't seem to be part of their happiness, I can't find anything to be happy about. Maybe I really am a loner...
Life goes on...
Sunday, July 10, 2005
The house may have to go...
The car may have to go...
Life may never be the same again...
I just hope that it does not have to end up this way...
Life goes on...
Saturday, July 09, 2005
Its been sometime since I last updated. I guess this blog is starting to loose its purpose. Not sure how long I'll keep this blog. Woke up early this morning to study for a test. Felt very stressed up after that. Called Pamela and we went out to chill. Went to shop and spent $41 on a Adidas shoe bag and a Adidas white basketball jersey. Just what I was looking for... Then we went to Mac for ice cream, her treat... Haha... She insisted, I swear. She even wanted to hit me when I was going to pay for my ice cream. Like what the hell right? After that she insisted to walk me to my bus stop and wait for my bus. What a crazy girl. Haha...
Life goes on...