Monday, December 26, 2005
Hey people!!! Its so great to see what great friends I have... Thanks for caring, guys... I really appreciate it.
Went out yesterday with 2 of my close secondary school bros. We shopped, ate at cartel and sat at Starbucks and talked. Haha... Talk about retail therapy... It felt so great to pour everything out. Felt so much better after that. Thanks guys. :)
After that we went to Bishan for dinner and I took a cab down to my grand mother's place. I cried... Cried like I never cried before. I told my aunty everything. Of course, I got scolded but that really woke me up. I was actually sleeping with a smile for a first time in days.
Before I slept that night, I thought things through. I am thankful that she broke up with me not giving me a second chance. I'm also thankful for his involvement. Because if not for him, we probably wouldn't have broke up. I realised that I wasn't willing to sacrifice my work for her and that our relationship had become more a burden that had been weighing me down. I failed to see it becaused I was blinded by my love for her. But now, I see things clearly and I feel so much lighter and happier. In fact, I've been smiling non stop the whole day. Haha...
Oh and guys, I also reaslised how much I've neglected all of you. I'm so sorry. So if possible, I'll meet up with each one of ya for a meal yea? Haha...
Life goes on...
Went out with my pals for dinner... After that we bought drinks and sat a basketball court to talk. Haha... Reached home at like 12? Not too sure... I feel so good right now... Haha... Thanks guys...
Life goes on...
Life goes on...
Saturday, December 24, 2005
Went out to play basketball today... And chilled out a friend's place after that. Just didn't want to go home. Its really hard to stop your mind from thinking when your alone. Cried to sleep last night and only to wake up in the middle of the night and cry again. Can't believe I am actually so weak. I guess I still love her alot but I've got to let go. I will be happy and I will be strong. The smile would once again return to my face...
An ex classmate of mine, gave me this quote and I thought I'd share with you guys out there. Its giving me strenght to go on;
"Do not follow the path. Instead take no path and leave your own trail."
By the way can you guys suggest a some blog address? Because this one's got to go. I was thinking of something like www.lifeofaperfectionist.com What do you guys think?
Life goes on...
Friday, December 23, 2005
I guess I was lying to myself when I said that things are getting better... It never did and will never do... We broke up this morning. Somehow, I'm not sad... Alright, a little... But that's about it. The rest is just anger that seems to have died down by the time I'm posting this. I guess everything has to come to an end some day. Its just a matter of time. I should have seen this coming. But then again, she allowed this to happened. She never pointed out my mistakes to me and didnt give me a second chance. Oh well... This is just going to motivate me to work even harder and achieve my dream of scoring all A's.
I swear that I, Goh Jin Hong Alvin will make the girl that I'll marry in the future, the happiest girl in the world. I swear... I'm going to work hard for my future and give her the best in everything that life can offer. Talk about motivation... Haha...
Life goes on...
Monday, December 19, 2005
We finally had our first fight. It was pretty ugly... But things are better now. Cleared up all the misunderstandings and trying to get things back to the way they were before. Holidays have started and frankly, its no holiday... Work work work... *sighs*
Life goes on...