Monday, April 02, 2007
Enough is enough.
No more drinking till I'm wasted, no more sleepless nights, no more of these garbage. Its time I'd pull myself together and get a grip.
Lately, I've spent all my nights out drinking and coming home all wasted, feeling like shit. Then I try to hit the sack only to wake up 1 or 2 hours later and spend the rest of my nights entertaining those fucked up thoughts that never seem to cease. Meals don't seem that important anymore. I hardly eat anyways. And I spend my days either staring into the air or just limping around lifelessly.
But that is all going to end today.
Life isn't meant to be lived this way. And its just pathetic to see anyone in that kinda state. I gotta love myself more than that to do those kinda things to myself.
Sure, all you depressed souls out there would say that I haven't seen shit yet. And that I don't know what is happening and will never understand. That maybe the case but to hell with all that bull shit. I'm stronger than that.
If you have a problem then solve it. I know I am. At least I'm trying to.
With all that being said, I've got good news! Firstly, I've started taking up a new sport, secondly, I've decided to take up music once again and thirdly, I've got a job which pays wells and demands little! Haha...
Now I know
That I can’t make you stay
But where’s your heart
But where’s your heart
But where’s your...
I know
There’s nothing I could say
To change that part
To change that part
To change...
So many
Bright lights been cast a shadow
But can I speak?
Well is it hard understanding
I’m incomplete
A life that’s so demanding
I get so weak
And all their souls are burning
I can’t speak
I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
Honey if you stay, I’ll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home
Can you see
My eyes are shining bright
Cause I’m out here
On the other side
Of the jet black hotel mirror
And I’m so weak
Is it hard understanding
I’m incomplete
And all their souls are burning
I get weak
I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
Honey if you stay, I’ll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home
I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
Honey if you stay, I’ll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home
**These bright lights have
always blinded me
These bright lights have
always blinded me**
I said
I see you lying next to me
With words I thought I’d never speak
Awake and unafraid
Asleep or dead
[x4]
I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
Honey if you stay, I'll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home
Life goes on...
Lord I pray, that you'll watch over her...