love; such a wonderful thing

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Thursday, August 09, 2007

"Though painful, it's just so easy to fall apart and break into pieces. Several parts going to work every morning; several parts wallowing in the bed; 2 pieces having attempted suicide - jumped through the kitchen window - lying on the ground and refusing to move; 8 pieces roaming the streets in all directions; 3 pieces crying in the bathroom - one on the sink, one in the shower cubicle, one in the toiletbowl waiting to be flushed away.

The agony to be torn apart. Like a thousand grievous wounds and not a single hope to close the gap and heal again. I bled everywhere.

"Why, why live broken when I can be whole! I am meant to be one and not many in our separate ways!" I exclaimed one day. "I feel so lonely!"

And so, I am starting to pick up the pieces of myself. Looking for the bits of me that I've lost along the last few days. The process is slow. And I despair - if I can really, fully recover everything. But it keeps me occupied. To save my mind from the cacophony of useless thoughts.

I mean to think only one thought. And I mean to be only one.

And I want and will take care of myself."

Packing up, clearing the mess, I'm moving on. Let the past stay in the past. Embrace what lies ahead. It certainly seems brighter that way. *smiles

Life goes on...