Tuesday, March 11, 2008
So I ended my relationship with her the way she did the last time. No, its not because I wanted revenge. But seeing the way we both are, I felt that it is the best way to part. To simply put it - disappear from each others' life.
You guys must be thinking, what would have triggered such an immense change in me.
Alot of reasons of which I'll list some:
- Speaking to my NS friends, it made me wiser to the fact that I'm simply wasting my time and love.
- No matter how much I try, my feelings are hardly ever reciprocated.
*Calls her handphone on my book out day. No answer*
*Sms-es me*
" You called?"
" Yea, wanted to talk to ya"
" Hmmm.. What's happening to you?"
" Missing someone badly."
*No reply*
This ain't the first time. Moving on now...
- My 21st birthday. You either couldn't remember my birthday or you simply couldn't be bothered to send me a simple sms. Its ok thou, I've got my friends. They remembered.
- We meet once every few weeks. How's that for a relationship?
- You post those pictures of you leaning on other guys, barely wearing anything on the internet. Ever spared a thought for my feelings? I guess not.
Well, enough is enough.
Thank you for your goodbye post (http://enchevetrement.blogspot.com/2008/03/going-back-to-get-away-after-everything.html)
Thank you too for the memories. And yes, I've moved on without a tinge of reminisence because you've shut me off for so long, the distance us has grown beyond the point of savage. More importantly, I'm tired. I'd like to move on.
Remember the post that I've posted about deleting all your contacts? Thank God I did, because I was so tempted to contact you after reading your blog.
And to think, a few days after deleting all your contacts and "moving on". My buddy in camp actually came up to me and said,
"Alvin, you look happier. Much lighter. Your smiling more. What happened?"
"I'm single."
Life goes on...